A single vision
Myopic and brittle
When pressed I always cave

It's the least I can do
When given attention
I have bludgeoned my sanity
Into a catatonic stare

I am afraid of how little I believe
That anything I've done is worth more than a passing glance
And a sneer of derision before being forgotten
I am committed to digging my own grave
By walking away

If I survive the fire
I'll live in the wreckage and ash

No resurrection
I am not a phoenix

No resurrection
I am an insect

It isn't time yet
The path extends along
There has been empty suffering
There has been too much stillness

I have fallen into every trap you set

Some while I was stepping back,
There is never grace in the ways I react
And crumble

If there is a method to hide how deeply I have failed
I've yet to learn it

If there is merit found in my presence here
It is a secret that will die after me

All of this silence
Lends a voice to the darkest thoughts in my head
My tired aching mind
Can muster awful threats

Through the panic and crippling static

I look for hope in poison and in sleep
I am grateful for the fleeting moments
Where I don't feel anything

I am a sunk cost without fallacy
My best endeavors are doomed to fail
Inherently

Tear me up in your jaws
Thrash til you hear the snap
I have felt like prey in every moment

All that I am is a quaking mass
Of desperate, painful, energy

I can't stand this slow death
And the stench of everything rot

Festering anxiety
Spend waking hours waiting for sleep
In my dreams I clench my teeth
And they shatter into jagged pieces

This is just a sad and errant effort
To distract me
To buy time

I am nothing
I am only wounded
Vicious and inept

I'm never gonna say the words
That you want
I'm never gonna feel the shame
Like you do
I'm never gonna stretch my shape
To be with you
I only need you for a day
'Cause I only want to be your
Saturday savior
I can be that
Saturday savior
I will be your
Saturday savior
I can be that impostor in your bed
Wake him up please
I'm never gonna make you feel
That you're satisfied
I'm never gonna feel your pain
Like you wish I would
I'm never gonna open up
More than this
I just want to be your
I just want to be your
I'm never gonna break apart
Quite like you
I'm never gonna long for life
The way you do
I'm never gonna push you out
'Cause your not in
This will only take a while
'Cause I only want to be your
Saturday savior