Tracks

01. Encyclopedia
02. Mirages
03. Reaching Deep Within
04. Two Is One
06. Castaway
07. Parasite
08. One In My Head
09. This Fragile Surface



01. Encyclopedia

Turning the page, write to cease new ideas
Thoughts - all duly recorded
Maybe someday, all the rhymes, given time
Would get justly rewarded

So long ago, you don't even know how it started
So there you go
Stashing the sketches and drafts of what has become an

Encyclopedia of all the things you've done
Expect the media to bother when you're gone

Hours and hours of sacrifice, no compromise
Forced as if under orders
Planning to take land sea and skies, but can't decide
When to cross the borders

Encyclopedia of all there is to know
Encyclopedia - but what is there to show

The piles just seem to grow
Is this ambitions one man show
There's only one man watching you, John Doe
He's both on stage and in the front row

Encyclopedia your one and only friend
Encyclopedia will pay off in the end

Turning around, the objective of the way you lived
Hypothetical fortune, suddenly found
You're at the gate it's too late
Psychological torture

So long ago, since you should have put it all out there
So now you go
Leaving for us to discover the paths you have tread

Encyclopedia all written by his hand
Encyclopedia will we ever understand

Now he will never know
Swept away by the undertow
The world is listening now, John Doe
Come back and reap what you have sown


02. Mirages

I could have pushed you out that day
That would have been the easy way
Watch you fly down that hundred meter fall
I wouldn't care at all

Falling, falling, drowning
Inhaling and you're screaming
Screaming... Pleading don't go

Mirages - as I hurt you in my mind
As the memories unwind
Mirages - as you led me to believe
In things that only you conceive

Why do you play that vicious game
I ask myself most every day
So high, that hundred meter fall
I turn around and there you are

Falling, falling, drowning
Inhaling and I'm screaming
Screaming Pleading Bleeding

Victoria falls were much too real
It's beauty false though now I see
Please try to explain
What was the aim, what was the gain
No matter how I try to wash it off
The stains remain

We are gathered here today
To say our last farewells
We fell so hard down that hundred meter fall
Now only stains of us remain

Mirages as you twisted with my mind
As you told me I was blind
Mirages well constructed to deceive
The trusty and naive
Mirages as you offered no reprieve
From the hell you had achieved
Mirages as I finally could see
That there was nothing to conceive


03. Reaching Deep Within

I can turn away and hold my breath a day
But I can't escape the stench of the lie
That's haunting my mind
I won't be free even if I'm deaf, dumb and blind

All those weary eyes with their wicked smiles
They come to my dreams, they're watching us now
They're after my head, they're after my life
Why can't they stay dead?

I confess to my sin, reaching deep within
It comes straight from my heart, where should I start
In revealing my thoughts, reaching deep within
I'm just letting it out and letting you in
Reaching within

It was so long ago, or was it yesterday
I can't seem to find a thread in my mind
A needle that's sharp that will make me whole
That's mending my soul

It's hard for me to plead, for your empathy
When hatred persists, whom can I persuade?
To forgive and forget
I threw the stone but I stand alone

I confess to my sin, reaching deep within
It comes straight from my heart, where should I start
In revealing my thoughts, reaching deep within
I'm just letting it out and letting you in
Reaching within

Dig in my head and you'll find what is on my mind
Take it all out, I insist that it won't be missed
Wake up the slumbering man,
Give him time to adapt to your world, I just know he can

I confess to my sin, reaching deep within
It comes straight from my heart, where should I start
In revealing my thoughts, reaching deep within
I'm just letting it out and letting you in
Reaching within


04. Two Is One

Living alone
Is not the way for me
Words on the phone
They fade and die as I put it down
Feel like a stone
Emotionless, hard and cold
All on my own
I just can't find the way

So tell me I'm dreaming
Please wake me up
Pinch my arm as hard as you want
Cause all of this madness
Makes sense when you're here
One & one is two, but not when two is one

Tired and slow
Time crawls by us now
Distance's a foe
Far, far too strong for my weary mind
Opening the door
The world lies endless, there below
Don't know where to go
I just can't find the way

So tell me I'm dreaming
Please wake me up
Pinch my arm as hard as you want
Cause all of this madness
Makes sense when you're here
One & one is two, but not when two is one

What good are numbers anyway
They put perspective on the game
But we're playing off the board
Oh the rules do not apply

I feel it, the energy
Keeping contact intravenously
Floating chemistry
Protones, electrones, forming atoms, molecules
Into complex lifeforms

So in perspective of the game
What good are numbers anyway
When we're playing off the board
Oh the rules do not apply

Tears from the ceiling
That's how I'm feeling
Falling forgiving
Call of the living

Tell me I'm dreaming
Please wake me up
Pinch my arm as hard as you want

Tears from the ceiling
Tell me I'm dreaming
Water fulfilling
Life a new meaning

So tell me I'm dreaming
Please wake me up
Pinch my arm as hard as you want
Cause all of this madness
Makes sense when you're here
One & one is two, but not when two is one
But if you count you lose the point

So in perspective of the game
What good are numbers anyway
When we're playing off the board
Oh the rules do not apply


06. Castaway

At the time I left land and sailed away
Never knew I would end up a castaway
Wind went hard and the sky had tears for me
The sea was all that I saw, my enemy

There are days that I wake up and strongly believe
There are ways to escape, I myself might deceive
In the bottles I've sent, I reached out for a hand
But as sure as I'm here, they have never seen land

Castaway, your clouds are in the way of light
I am stumbling blind
Castaway, your thoughts, remembered by the prints
That I left behind

I know, but it's so hard to show
Myself a way, to a better day
I know that I am destined to live
A life in memory, companion to my misery

I've seen ships passing by, but they've never seen me
And for each day that pass without being free
I will moulder within with nothing to win
I will gamble my soul to pay any toll
Isolation I face every day, every night
What is real what is not, I keep losing my sight
Who's to care who's to not, I just never might know
For the son God forgot, maybe someday, I hope someday they'll show

I used to love the snow
Can I reach it now
Beyond my dreams somehow
Only the stars look the same
How I'd love to know their names

Castaway, your clouds are in the way of light
I am stumbling blind
Castaway, your thoughts, remembered by the prints
That I left behind

I know, but it's so hard to show
Myself a way, to a better day
I know that I am destined to live
Trapped by the sea, living in your memory


07. Parasite

I sit in darkness cold and wait
Searching in my mind
My watch has stopped at half past eight
And I can't recall a thing
I won't accept this divided state
Where two are trapped in one
I'd ask them to communicate
If I knew how

I am the one of your fears
In your head, in your bed, in your dreams or so it seems
Am I too much
I have no fears, have no tears
And might I add, like I said;
Am I too much

They're starting to interrogate, looking for a sign
Trying to intimidate, "we know you were there that night"
It seems it's getting far too late to find an easy out
But how am I to indicate that it was eye

I am the one of your fears
In your head, in your bed, in your dreams or so it seems
Am I too much
I have no fears, have no tears
And once again, little friend
Am I too much

I wake before the curtains fall, just in time to see
His devastating work of art, acknowledged and signed by me
And you... you just just cry
I...

I, oh I got so much I wanna say
Yeah, so many things I've kept away
All the lying, all denying, all the little bricks in his game
So clear to me, yet so obscured
If anyone could help me out, if anyone just anyone
But if anyone would find me out
I couldn't bear, I wouldn't dare
So I play.


08. One In My Head

The time has come to contemplate
My dearest parasite
You take me to a state of hate
Where reason just don't apply
This secret curse can't be my fate
Or something I've deserved
My mind is set to liberate
Itself from you

I look into your eye, I let go of my pride
I confess to the lie, I look straight into your
I am the one, one in my head
I have no fears, I have no tears
I am the one, one in my head
I have no fears, I have no tears

I banged my head against the wall
Ran around in circles
Scratched my itchy skin until I bled
Crossed my bloody fingers
Kneeled down and prayed
Oh father are you in heaven
What is in my defense
I've committed sins, all seven
Is there time to make amends
Eight nine ten eleven
Escalating fast
Could I have changed the past or present
And for how long will it last

It's like I'm being cursed
I just can't quench this thirst
But now I'm ready to burst
You know, I was in here first

I am the one, one in my head
I have no fears, I have no tears
I am the one, one that you dread
I have no fears, I have no tears


09. This Fragile Surface

I open up my eye and I, I open as my eye
I stare and let it read my mind, eye open as am I
Scanning through that tangled maze I lose myself again
Who am I whose eye defines the thoughts run through my head
And soon I find there's no way out, my eye is my guide again

Showing me around, these pathways so profound
Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun
As he forces me to run again
Asking would you like to be my friend

Eye look into eye and I try to draw the line
Fight that lie and hide my fright, keep it out of mind
Far away I hear a voice that shouts and demands
Syllables and letters forming words of command
Closer now, then from inside, I think that I understand

Showing you around, these pathways so profound
Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun
As I force you with a gun run, run
Asking would you like to be my friend

I look into your eye, I pretend it's all fine
I keep living the lie, I look into your eye

This fragile surface may hold the weight of all that's locked inside
But will it help you clean your slate, or do you just run and hide
You can run

This fragile surface white and blue if studied will reveal
There's something in the depths below that I cannot conceal
Through years and years of acting and the practice of my stare
Has made it easy to escape if you didn't already know it was there

This fragile mirror of the soul reflects both fake and real
But before you see too much of me I'll turn or keep it sealed
So I face the ground and hurry on, I run from how I feel
To tell you 'bout my self-inflicted wounds that will never heal