Tracks

01. Intro
02. I Rape Myself
03. Song About Killing
04. It's Our Burden To Bleed
05. Nothing Is Forever
06. Together Alone
07. My Fiction Beauty
08. No More 2nd Chances
09. I Refuse To Keep On Living...
10. Sick Of Running Away
11. Moment Of Clarity
12. Army Of Me
13. Room Of Nowhere



01. Intro

Instrumental


02. I Rape Myself

Now I'm standing here alone at the end of the road,
Screaming into the emptiness.
Why did we start this way together.
(Although) it was clear to me I would end up all alone,
(Completely) broken and misused by love!?

I rape myself and I don't know why,
This whole thing makes no sense at all!

Have you ever understood me
Have you ever felt the same
Have you ever looked in my eyes
Bury my starving heart.

I rape myself and I don't know why,
This whole thing makes no sense at all!

My heart was a present, but you didn't understand.
You weren't ready to go until the end together (beside me)
That is why I'm standing here all alone.
Screaming into the emptiness

I rape myself and I don't know why,
This whole thing makes no sense at all!


03. Song About Killing

I'm here to kill
I'm here to die
I feel this pain
I feel this hate
You teach me love
You teach me fear
But now you're getting it all back
(And my reasons are just trivial)

Try to run away
But believe me, to die this is your fate

This is a song about killing
A love letter just for you
Let's make it right
Let's make it clear
No one wants you here!

All I want is to kill
I want you dead
The price is too high
My life's too short
(I'm sick of hunting you)
You are my shadow
You are my demon
You have to burn for my joy

I'll watch you burn
So you better run, before I'll watch you burn

Try to run away
But believe me, to die is your fate

This is a song about killing
A love letter just for you
Let's make it right
Let's make it clear
No one wants you here!


04. It's Our Burden To Bleed

In our world fire burns bright
Take care or you get hurt
Flames kiss you goodnight
Ashes is what's left behind
You're dead in my head
In our world you cry

We've gone too far now, we fell to deep
It's our burden to bleed!

We kill you all, kill you

We've gone too far, we fell to deep
Didn't you see?
It's our burden to bleed.
Our life was just a lie
Our way just pain what happened
What's left behind?

We've gone too far now, we fell to deep
It's our burden to bleed!

We kill you all, die.

What's left behind?

(Just the shadows of our guilty mind
Come on sweet death
We expect your lovely kiss!!)


05. Nothing Is Forever

Certainty of emptiness, trustful
New pain and thoughts of the path
There is just one constant
Nothing is forever!

Time of calm and peace
Time to look inside
Relic pictures of past
Black and white deceives
Uncovers the glance for my grief
Nothing is forever!

(From above the dark sky of the night
Watches instructive my inner fight)

I gave my heart, my blood
Nothing is forever (but eternity).

Time of calm and peace
Time to look inside
Relic pictures of past
Black and white deceives
Uncovers the glance for my grief
Nothing is forever!

And in the end only haze remains
Nothing is forever.

I gave my heart, my blood
Nothing is forever (but eternity).

Certainty of fate, fatal emptiness
An empty hope for future
How shapeless (the) fate shows
I fight for something eternal

Time of calm and peace
Time to look inside
Relic pictures of past
Black and white deceives
Uncovers the glance for my grief.
Nothing is forever!!


06. Together Alone

Your life is life
Mine is just a lie.

Time passes by
Everything flows in the same stream
And we are driving down the river
I pause and let you go
My tears whip the river
There I stand stiff forever
Singing this song of mourning

My cradle is full of hope
I don't give up
I break the wall
(And fight forever for my joy)

You're going your own way
Floating in another dream
You feel no fear, no doubt
Your power keeps you real
There will be new paths
No doubt and well fed fears
We will go our ways alone
Together alone

Let's go

Your life is life
Mine is just a lie.


07. My Fiction Beauty

Waiting to breath out
I saved my last breath to blow this darkness away

Sweet shadows are calling me
My heart feels free to beat
It's all about you, my fiction beauty
You are the one who could save me!

Save me
You were the avenger
A shining illusion of my lust
A shining illusion of my trust!

Sweet shadows are calling me
My heart is scared to beat
It's all about you, my fiction beauty,
You are the one who could kill me.

Save me
You were the avenger
A shining illusion of my lust
A shining illusion of my trust!

Sweet shadows are calling me
My heart feels to weak to beat
It's all about you, my fiction beauty
You are the one who killed me.

Save me
You were the avenger
A shining illusion of my lust
A shining illusion of my trust!

Waiting to breathe out
I saved my last breath to blow this darkness away.


08. No More 2nd Chances

What is the meaning
Which is the drive that keeps on hurting you?
My words are a double-edged sword
My wounds are your scars of tomorrow!

No more second chances
No more fucking chances.

Every step I make is wrong
It's like a (fucking) nightmare
And there are no more second chances!!

No more second chances
No more fucking chances.

All I can see is a horizon of pain (and hatred)
I just reflected cold emotions
And I deserve the pain
Maybe I'll wake up one day!?

No more second chances
No more fucking chances.


09. I Refuse To Keep On Living...

Red, blood red
No matter where I look at
I'm waiting in a sea of blood

Where has time gone
What has happened in the dark?
Memories of fear, cries, noise, silence.

A new day, old routine
I refuse to keep on living such a sad life

Help me out
I try to run away
Help me out
I know you can save me today
Save me this time.

A new day, old routine
I refuse to keep on living such a sad life

Red, blood red
No matter where I look at
I'm waiting in a sea of blood

I'll go out into the street
Staring eyes, laughing mouths
What have I done, what have I missed?
(I run to escape from this storm of ignorance
But no matter where I end, ignorance)

Help me out
I try to run away
Help me out
I know you can save me today
Save me this time.

(The dark...
I enjoy the silence, no one there.
I see my self, circling wild, time lapse.)
Am I at home, am I safe?
I look into the mirror
Screaming laughter, worse than before

Help me out
I try to run away
Help me out
I know you can save me today
Save me this time.


10. Sick Of Running Away

I have no energy to be
Where is my will and drive to be happy?
You're giving me hope
But everything seems to be illusion and smoke
For love, for life, for surrender!

Just one word and I'll be yours
Just one touch an I'll burn again.

Just one word for a new time
Cause in your eyes I see myself
I'm sick of running away.

But in your eyes what do I mean?
A name, one among of thousand others?
Nasty and sweet are my thoughts but my desire can't be satisfied.
For love, for life, for surrender!!

The worst shall be over now
Your mental beauty was stunning,
My feeling for myself is overgrown of dried plants
And I'm sick of running away!

Just one word for a new time
Cause in your eyes I see myself
I'm sick of running away.

Just one word and I'll be yours
Just one touch and I'll burn again.


11. Moment Of Clarity

I am willing to suffer, to bleed
To die for the things I care about
But it's like kissing the lips of my dead love
Like touching her dead, cold, white skin.

I choose to look back
To see myself
I never wanted to hurt you again,
I choose to look back
To see myself
I never wanted to loose you again.

I have never been here before, ground zero
The past is a gaping hole.
For her love
For her heart
For her trust
For her love I'm reborn.

My only chance is to turn around and face it.
I choose to look back, to see myself
For her love
For her heart
For her trust
For her love I'm reborn.

I choose to look back
To see myself
I never wanted to hurt you again,
I choose to look back
to see myself
I never wanted to loose you again.


12. Army Of Me

Stand up you've got to manage
I wont sympathize anymore.

And if you complain once more
You meet an army of me.

You're all right
There's nothing wrong
Self sufficiency please!
And get to work.

And if you complain once more
You meet an army of me.

You're all right
There's nothing wrong
Self sufficiency please!

You're on your own now
We won't save you
We won't save you

You're on your own now
We won't save you
Your rescue squad is too exhausted.

And if you complain once more
You meet an army of me.

You're all right
There's nothing wrong
Self sufficiency please!


13. Room Of Nowhere

Coldness surrounds me
I'm filled with fear
In this room of nowhere.

Darkness surrounds me.

Tell me where's my soul
I move in the dark
Tell me where's my soul
We'll feed from hatred.

Screams surround me
Kill or die
(Your soul is our desire)
In this room of nowhere

Darkness surrounds me.

Tell me where's my soul
I move in the dark
Tell me where's my soul
We'll feed from hatred.

(Masters of fire
Teach me your art
In this room of nowhere.)

Tell me where's my soul
I move in the dark
Tell me where's my soul
We'll feed from hatred

Masters of fire
Teach me your art
In this room of nowhere.