Tracks

01. Silence
02. Without Reason
03. Lost Our Way
04. Self Inflicted
05. Blood
06. A Pale Reflection
07. Sunshine
08. Illuminate
09. Walk Beside You
10. Kartika
11. Means For An Ending
12. Brighter Day



01. Silence

Moments pass (pass) (pass) (pass)
like a myriad of hours lost to time
a never ending glance, solemn in your eyes
filled with doubt (doubt) (doubt) (doubt)
the lies we harbor, screaming to get out
your disdain, it never left your mouth

You carved unspoken words in stone
you stripped the skin & scraped the bone
you stain me with indifference
when I'm calling out your name...
you built a tomb of blood & stone
through fields that bloom in autumn's cold
I never thought I'd be the one
to live my life in silence...

And I fall (fall) (fall) (fall)
drifting through the shades of sympathy
but I'll never let it show or let it lead me down
and I feel (feel) (feel) (feel)
life it bleeds me like an open wound
but I'll never let it flow, these rivers of desolation

You carved unspoken words in stone
you stripped the skin & scraped the bone
you stain me with indifference
when I'm calling out your name...
you built a tomb of blood & stone
through fields that bloom in autumn's cold
I never thought I'd be the one
to live my life in silence...


02. Without Reason

All I've learned I leave behind
I've been running through this blind
serene and free
but I'll never return (never return)

Clinging to my desperation
I won't expect resolve
I've been waiting all my life

Through the shards of light
I see a broken image, dull and grey
I won't forget in time
I won't regret our yesterdays
and I've been smothered in doubt
troubled without reason

Although I look I cannot find
my only dream remains denied
and I'm left here feeling
I'll never be free (never be free)

Holding on in desperation
I won't accept this loss
I've been waiting all my life

Through the shards of light
I see a broken image, dull and grey
I won't forget in time
I won't regret our yesterdays
and I've been smothered in doubt
troubled without reason


03. Lost Our Way

Beneath the depths of a fate so cruel and so cold
she's counting all the lies that will unfold
restrained by the pain that will drag her down again
the rains will wash away her disdain

Hurt
left unsaid
idle dreams
left for dead

Calling out in vain
desire bound by anguished ways
(tears that stain the whites of your eyes)
what hope will remain
pained it seems we lost our way
(obscured shadows cradle tainted lies)

Erase all she has seen and isolate her pain
desperation dances on her name
sleep tonight my love, I wont let you feel betrayed
your wounds will heal, succumb and slowly fade

Hurt
left unsaid
melt away
yesterday

Calling out in vain
desire bound by anguished ways
(tears that stain the whites of your eyes)
what hope will remain
pained it seems we lost our way
(obscured shadows cradle tainted lies)

...and I wont let you fade
...and I wont let you fade

Calling out in vain
desire bound by anguished ways
(tears that stain the whites of your eyes)
what hope will remain
pained it seems we lost our way
(obscured shadows cradle tainted lies)


04. Self Inflicted

A million piercing eyes make you feel alive
yet your skin can't hide that your dead inside
shallow, broken & worthless to me
I look far beyond what you want me to see

Who left me out to die?
in an existence buried alive
I remember a time when I dreamed
I recall the hope in my eyes

Afraid of what you might find?
if you took a moment to look inside
hate, loathing & self rejection
behind those eyes it's a growing infection

Who left me on the outside?
where did we get lost along the way
I remember a time when it seemed
that all your wounds were self inflicted

it's seething / it's breeding
it's restricted / it's self inflicted

Who left me on the outside?
where did we get lost along the way
I remember a time when it seemed
that all your wounds were self inflicted


05. Blood

In the shadows of the night broken by smoldering light
the reek of innocent flesh, veils the silence
cry, hear them cry, as you liberate them in fire
lies, bloody lies, feel the weight upon your shoulders

I've seen the lies
and it opened my eyes (my eyes)
no reason why
you led them to die (to die)

Life - so feeble in the hands of greed
Demise - full circle, coming to you

Do you ever close your eyes and see what you've become?
see the faces that you scorn? taste the tears of the forlorn?
life, what is life, so disposable for your gain
lies, bloody lies, feel the weight of all this pain

I've seen your ties
and it opened my eyes (my eyes)
no reason why
you led them for lies (for lies)

Life - so feeble in the hands of greed
Demise - full circle, coming to you

See the bodies burning
a vision so bleak we create
twisted by greed
I've seen all the lies
blood will always remain

I've seen your ties
and it opened my eyes (my eyes)
no reason why
you led them for lies (for lies)

Their blood is on your hands
Their blood is on your hands


06. A Pale Reflection

Take a look at the years decay
I don''t deny the words they say anymore
behind this crumbling wall I hide
beneath its depths, I surrender all inside

...And what has become of me
a pale reflection used to be...

I can't recall the last time
I saw the world through my own eyes
...the only gain is my demise

There's a reason I can't find
I can't escape the slide of it's decline
coursing through my fingers
with no influence, it lingers

...And what has become of me
a pale reflection used to be...

I can't recall the last time
I saw the world through my own eyes
...the only gain is my demise

With the winds came a change
and casting shadows slipped away
I don't deny the words they say
about a man left in ruins

...And what has become of me
a pale reflection of what used to be...


07. Sunshine

I've seen with open eyes
this endless dream with bluest skies
I've finally tasted life

You've always been the one
to lift me from my darkest days
you held me through this rain

Now we can feel the sun
Bask in its glow as one

Now we can feel the sun
Bask in its glow as one

Sunshine
Sunshine
Sunshine
Sunshine


08. Illuminate

I look for something in your eyes
to see if I can find a trace
of what I've been looking for
just a sign
of that ever burning light
of a flame that burns my yesterdays
only ashes will remain

Look what you do to me
I want you to let me on the inside

Illuminate - every part of me
Illuminate - come and set me free
Illuminate - a soul in need of life
Illuminate - cover me with light

Like the stains upon my heart
I was wounded from the start
I never felt a sense of sanity
your whispers linger in your scent
a premonition I relent
bleed me dry
take your fill of every thing I have

Look what you do to me
I want you to let me on the inside

Illuminate - every part of me
Illuminate - come and set me free
Illuminate - a soul in need of life
Illuminate - me one last time

Me one last time...

Illuminate - every part of me
Illuminate - come and set me free
Illuminate - a soul in need of life
Illuminate - me one last time

Me one last time...


09. Walk Beside You

All the times I walked beside you
and reached for your hand
all the times I let it go and just walked away
and I still never told you of my shame
and I want you to tell me not to blame

I've been told
that im a dreamer...

I feel that I owe you some kind of explanation
and its real, I'm not dreaming of yesterday

You know I never meant to hurt you
and make you feel such pain
you know I always tried to love you
seems I lost my way
but I still sheltered you from the rain
and I tried not to let you walk away

I'm still cold
And I'm here screaming

I feel that I owe you some words of reassurance
can't you see, that I wont leave you all alone

I walk beside you
I walk beside you
I walk beside you
I walk beside you


10. Kartika

Released of flesh
severed from my ignorance
crowned with the enlightenment & purity
of the five wisdoms
that wash away the five poisons
harmonization that transcends
states that obscure
I hold my right hand to my heart
in severance of my worldly bonds

Indestructible is the knowledge
we hold within
and the primordial nature of the universe
the underlying unity of all things
from the mouths of makaras
come the tongues of life and lust
this supreme sacrifice I make
to the conqueror of death
a symbol for the nature of reality
in a ritual of renewal


11. Means For An Ending

Bitter sweet the memories
that seem so long ago
tear away my skin
and find the remnants of my soul

calling your name
calling your name

Situations come and go
and I'm still waiting for the fall
living out my days
and never letting go

calling your name
calling your name

I've tried running from my mistakes
I'm tired of seeking asylum
I need a means for an ending
but it never seems I'll find it...

In time, turning a blind eye
I'll find a means for an ending
amend my steps out of line
and take away all my regrets

I've tried running from my mistakes
I'm tired of seeking asylum
I need a means for an ending
but it never seems I'll find it...

I'll find a means for an ending
and take away all my regrets


12. Brighter Day

Was there ever a time you were there for me?
was it too much to know that you cared
you were lost inside I know that now
but sometimes I still feel like that child
lost in life, alone inside my head

Through the screams that splinter me inside
I've lost count of all the dreams that died
but I'm stronger now or so I say
and although I love you its hard not to blame
for the boy that's lost inside the man
is it hard to know my pain mirror's your own?

How was I supposed to know life was never grey
with the weight of this sadness on me everyday
never felt your embrace, soothe me through my tears
not a reassuring word, to guide me through my fears
and it breaks my heart to see you cry
but I disconnected long ago when I died inside
was I ever that child in those fragile arms?

I know you feel the loss

Through the screams that tore through me inside
I have no recollection of a time you smiled
I've seen the scars in us so deep
and although I love you now, I have nothing left to say
won't you lead me to a brighter day
were the sun peels away all this hardened skin....

lead me to a brighter day
lead me to a brighter day

Through the screams that splinter me inside
I've lost count of all the dreams that died
but I'm stronger now or so I say
and although I love you its hard not to blame
for the boy that's lost inside the man
is it hard to know my pain mirror's your own?

lead me to a brighter day
lead me to a brighter day