Tracks

01. Get Inside
02. Orchids
03. Cold Reader
04. Blotter
05. Choose
06. Monolith
07. Inhale
08. Bother
09. Blue Study
10. Take a Number
11. Idle Hands
12. Tumult
13. Omega



01. Get Inside

Seed, gotta let it grow, why ya gotta watch when I let it feed?
Better look into the mirror for the face you hide away, everyday
But I don't give a fuck; I let it roll - I smoke the old
Gotta run, gotta rend, gotta maim, gotta make it through another maze
Stay away!

Please: wring the blood from my hands
Don't pretend that you understand me
I don't even want you looking at me
Motherfucker, get inside!

Get inside, get inside (motherfucker)

Christ, have you seen this guy? Make ya sick, gonna peel away all the impurities
Cuz all you wanna do is keep curin' me, but I don't give a fuck I kill everyone
You'll be mopping up blood and guts and all the shit when I'm done
Isn't this fun? Gimme a gun and I'll tell you all the secrets I hide
Before I run!

Please: wring the blood from my hands
Don't pretend that you understand me
I don't even want you looking at me
Motherfucker, get inside!

Get inside, get inside (motherfucker)

[Solo: Josh]

Maybe if you look away, I can slip away, gotta get away (run, motherfucker)
Right now I stare at shit, I'm a heretic, but I'll never give you none of it
Tied up in the back of the lab, laid on the slab, got the gift of gab, what'choo want from me?
I don't even know I got a damn disease, but I know you wanna kill me!

Please: wring the blood from my hands
Don't pretend that you understand me
I don't even want you looking at me
Motherfucker, get inside!

Get inside, get inside (motherfucker)


02. Orchids

You hold me inside your iris
Like a terminal stain on life
You condescend to my primal brain
And twist me around like a knife
Can't begin to explain
The feelings I have restrained
Don't ask me how I am
Because you're too busy planning your epitaph
Let me tell you

Don't - try to be the one - person
Who has stayed - just to say
They never left me!
Aggravated, complicated, someone say it
God, I never learn...

You keep me hidden behind a curtain,
An audible human display
You feed me orchids to give me courage
And keep me in line with disdain

Can't begin to explain
The feelings I have restrained
Don't ask me how I am
Because you're too busy planning your epitaph
Let me tell you

Don't - try to be the one - person
Who has stayed - just to say
They never left me!
Aggravated, complicated, someone say it
God, I never learn:

I have nothing left for you...
You left me with nothing

I live at arm's length and die a little,
Between your constants by day
I want my soul back before it's over,
I can't even wish you away

Can't begin to explain
The feelings I have restrained
Don't ask me how I am
Because you're too busy planning your epitaph
Let me tell you

Don't - try to be the one - person
Who has stayed - just to say
They never left me!
Aggravated, complicated, someone say it
God, I never learn:

I never learn!


03. Cold Reader

I... can only hurt your case
It's written on your face
You always come to me
I won't be used, but...
I - can't fight you anymore
I know I'll open up the door, oh...

No! I won't! I can't! Not anymore!
One more time and I think I'll fucking die!
Why? Do I always have to suffer the consequences?

Stay... Away from who I am
Cuz I know what you are
I can't believe you're here
Then again, you know that...

I - can't fight you anymore
I know I'll open up my soul, oh...

No! I won't! I can't! Not anymore!
One more time and I think I'll fucking die!
Why? Do I always have to suffer the consequences?

Stop: I know your goddamn game
It's always been the same
The story hasn't changed
Neither will you, but...

I - can't fight you anymore
I know I'll open up my soul

No! I won't! I can't! Not anymore!
One more time and I think I'll fucking die!
Why? Do I always have to suffer the consequences?


04. Blotter

I only wanted, only wanted just to touch you
I couldn't bear it, couldn't bear it if you leave
It doesn't matter, doesn't matter if I scare you
I only wanted, only wanted someone else's skin
To feel you there
Touch my face
Keep me whole
Help me see... my life
Give me your life

I didn't wanna, didn't wanna be the first one
I haven't ever, haven't ever been discreet
It isn't over, isn't over by a long shot
I didn't wanna, didn't wanna be the only one
To feel you there
Touch your face
Keep you whole
Help you see... my life
Give me your life

Incredible... and chemical

Before I show you where the secret is
I want to turn you into this
I want to give you all my nothingness
I want to cover you with this

See my life... give me your life
Let me see... my life
Give me - your life

Incredible... and chemical


05. Choose

Hear me!
Remember all the times you bent our truth and crossed our lines?
All things considered, it was just our normal way of life
But somewhere in the middle, we got caught and dragged away
So my tribunal brings us here so I can fall today

All - you want is soulless
All - you got to break us
All - I have to do is
Stop - your fucking nonsense

I can't betray!
I can't betray - myself!

I stand before you as a victim, as the system rots
I couldn't focus, so I staggered when I heard the shots
There are no labels and no rehabilitation here
You are surrounded by the very fucking thoughts you fear

All - you want is soulless
All - you got to break us
Hear me!

All - I have to do is
Stop - your fucking nonsense

I can't betray!
I can't betray - myself!

I watch the hope I had disintegrate before my eyes
I take a minute and reflect on all your fucking lies
Behind the door, you have two choices, but you don't get to choose
You can survive or you can die - either way you lose

All - you want is soulless
All - you got to break us
All - I have to do is

Stop - your fucking nonsense

I can't betray!
I can't betray - myself!

Choose!


06. Monolith

Is this wrong of me? I've come so far, so fast
I'm in the dark about a lot of things
Seems so real - to me!

I've consecrated!
I wish that I could hate it
I saw my bloody hands come clean... Before my eyes!

And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within

Visions plague my dreams - oh God, what beast did this?
I couldn't have: oh Jesus, I just don't know
What's inside - of me?

I've desecrated!
My god, I love to hate it!
My hands are bloody again, there's no reason why!

And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, someone stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within

[Solo: Josh]

And I hear my wants and needs again, can you help me?
And I hear a different kind again, can you stop me
And I feel the strain inside my mind, am I crazy?
And I need to shed my skin, reveal this monolith within

Within!


07. Inhale

Come one and all and see the broken man, talking to himself
He sits and waits for something better, he'll never find it here
The people touch his hair and pinch his cheek; he can't even feel it

There it goes again, he's listening to someone
He hears the bitter laughter
And all he wants to know is...

Why... does any of it matter? (I can't take it anymore)
You've gotta try... the inhale that makes the exhale so much better

He wipes his hands on anything in reach, he never feels clean
He shakes at night because his nerve is gone, every muscle hurts
Come one and all and see what happened...that broken man is me

There it goes again, I can hear it louder
It doesn't feel good anymore
All I want to know is...

Why... does any of it matter? (I can't take it anymore)
You've gotta try... the inhale that makes the exhale so much better

Now I know I disappear!
I can't find my way from out of here!
Everything is fading on me!
Someone tell me... someone tell me...
Someone - tell me

Why... does any of it matter? (I can't take it anymore)
You've gotta try... the inhale that makes the exhale so much better

Why?! You've gotta try!


08. Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

[Solo: Corey]

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit


09. Blue Study

Somewhere between my tongue and cheek
I can feel the hands on me
Pulls me in so we are face to face
I don't wanna see it...I don't wanna see
Hold my head up, can't avert my eyes
Spots and rats on me, I don't wanna see
Claw the ground up, get me out of this
Never wanted this - never needed this!

And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And I left you, too

Chair is stained and I can't stay awake
Bring forth evidence to keep me sane
I can't keep this riddle locked inside
Seven ways to keep my secrets tied

Can't believe this, I belong in chains
Separated, it was me and something else
Now I'm numbing, get me out of this
Never wanted this - never needed this!

And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
Oh, but then I left you and

And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And I left you, too

[Solo: Jim]

Arms stretched out, giving thanks to pain
Spotlight looking down, I'm ashamed
Kneeling with my forehead to the ground
I can't help but flinch before I'm found

I don't need you! Can't you see behind?
Doesn't matter now - doesn't matter anymore!
Maybe made me, get me out of this
Never wanted this - never needed this!

And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And motherfucker, then I left you and...

And you left me
And I left you
And you left me
And I left you, too

Safe! I just want to be safe!
Safe! I just - want to - be safe!
Safe! Don't you want to be safe?
Safe! Why can't you let me be - safe?


10. Take a Number

Never even knew
What you meant to convey
You handed us a retrospect
'Til you didn't have a thing to say
No one questions you
Even someone set out to do
Now it'snothing...
But dead and gone
Let's go

Better with a lie
Than the world's ever seen
You wanted all the recognition
Until you lost the means
No one talks to you
Even someone set out to do
Take a number...
Your time has come

Cuz you're another one!
You're another soul to feed
To the man's machine!

My excuses lay me down
My emotions make me drown
My endeavor takes blame
At least I have a name

Cuz you're another one!
You're another soul to feed
To the man's machine!

[Solo: Jim]


11. Idle Hands

Stuck to the dog, pissin' out both ends
I got a hundred lethal weapons that I call my friends
Ain't a person on Earth who could take my life
I wish they would so a man could get some sleep at night
But my design is a mixture of descent and decay
I see a monster in the mirror fucking everyday
Can a man ever wash his hands of blood?
Perpetual deja vu, isn't that enough?
Peel back the layers... and see what I've become
Satisfied? Now I feel nothing
Stay away - I swear it wasn't me!

See if you can relish if you close both eyes
Every time I make an issue of it, someone dies
Carried out like a hit man, set in stone
Don't know why I even bother to be left alone
In my opinion, it's a self-serving fucked-up phase
Got a picture in my wallet that I keep, in case I
Gotta go, gotta split, gotta make it to a higher level than this
But I could be wrong, what I say is wrong, what I really want to say is:

Peel back the layers... and see what I've become
Satisfied? Now I feel nothing
Stay away - I swear it wasn't me!

Run... it doesn't matter,
I need all the miracles that I can gather
Run... I can't pretend
I put myself in idle hands again

Here's how it ends, just a bit too soon
River deep in all the shit I let myself get into
Doesn't anybody like it here?
Blank looks, television drama and no fear
Let another person fuck with your mind
I bet you become the person who will fuck in time
Man I just stopped caring, the music is blaring
I feel you glaring, why won't you stop staring?

Peel back the layers... and see what I've become
Satisfied? Now I feel nothing
Stay away - I swear it wasn't me!

Run... it doesn't matter
I need all the miracles that I can gather
Run... I can't pretend
I put myself in idle hands again

Get the fuck off of me!


12. Tumult

Goddamn you!
Haven't let you in 'cause I'm in you
Haven't let you in 'cause I'm in you
Must have been a bitch, must have been a pain
Take me off the "innocent"
Put me in your vein!

It's improbable
It's improbable

Haven't said a word 'cause you're still on
Haven't said a word 'cause you're still on
Mustn't take offense, mustn't take a bow
Used to be a derelict
Now I have to live with it!

It's improbable
It's improbable
It's improbable
You came back, but I know better, boy

Trip my light fantastic
Rub me in your wound
I'm not broken, I'm not plastic
I'm no whore...
Used against me - use me up again

It's improbable
It's improbable
It's improbable
You came back but I know better, boy

(Sometimes I think I'm crazy; other times I know I'm not)

Got no time to time to time (once again)

You don't want me, you don't need me!


13. Omega

What a skeletal wreck of man this is.
Translucent flesh and feeble bones,
The kind of temple where the whores and villains try to tempt the holistic domes.
Running rampid with free thought to free form, and the free and clear.
When the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a
Laundry mat to sift and focus on the bigger, better, now.
We all have a little sin that needs venting,
Virtues for the rending and laws and systems and stems are ripped
From the branches of office, do you know where your post entails?
Do you serve a purpose, or purposely serve?
When in doubt inside your atavistic allure, the value of a summer spent, and a winter earned.
For the rest of us, there is always Sunday.
The day of the week the reeks of rest, but all we do is catch our breath,
So we can wade naked in the bloody pool, and place our hand on the big, black book.
To watch the knives zigzag between our aching fingers.
A vacation is a countdown, T minus your life and
Counting, time to drag your tongue across the sugar cube,
And hope you get a taste.
What the fuck is all this for?
What the hell's going on? Shut up!
I can go on and on but lets move on, shall we?

Say, your me, and I'm you, and they all watch the things we do,
And like a smack of spite they threw me down the stairs,
Haven't felt like this in years.
The great magnet of malicious magnanimous refuse, let me go,
And punch me into the dead spout again.
That's where you go when there's no one else around,
It's just you, and there was never anyone to begin with, now was there?
Sanctimonious pretentious dastardly bastards with their thumb on the pulse,
And a finger on the trigger.
Classified my ass! That's a fucking secret, and you know it!
Government is another way to say better…than…you.
It's like ice but no pick, a murder charge that won't stick,
It's like a whole other world where you can smell the food,
But you can't touch the silverware.
Huh, what luck. Fascism you can vote for.
Humph, isn't that sweet?
And we're all gonna die some day, because that's the American way,
And I've drunk too much, and said too little,
When your gaffer taped in the
Middle, say a prayer, say a face, get your self together and see what's happening.
Shut up! Fuck you! Fuck you!
I'm sorry, I could go on and on but
Their times to move on so, remember: you're a wreck, an accident.
Forget the freak, your just nature.
Keep the gun oiled, and the temple cleaned shit snort,
And blaspheme, let the heads cool, and the engine run.
Because in the end, everything we do, is just everything we've done.