Tracks

01. System Overload
02. Request
03. Let Go
04. Terrorist
05. Pedestal
06. On Hold
07. Breakdown
08. March
09. Perfect
10. Fight or Flight
11. Fine Lines



01. System Overload

Epileptic seizure attack building up and coming back
The massacre beginning as I cross the threshold
Overload on information, bust in with no invitation
Tackling the mountain with a dirty blindfold

I'm in over my head
I can't relate
Again, I'm bound and gagged
I can't escape

Meltdown: the system's overloading
The fuse is burning

Asphyxiating on what's being crammed down my throat
And it's eating every fiber in me and the fists keep pounding
Throw me to the sharks, I'll take it
Overboard, obliterated
Sinking to the bottom with the sirens sounding

Consumed and overused
Burned at the stake
Ground down to the bone
Wired awake

Meltdown: the system's overloading
The fuse is burning

Buried and afflicted by the accumulation
Pressing on my shoulders
Piling on me
Headed towards extinction
In a world where every carnivore and whore
Will gouge my eyes out

Every day the daily drone is grating on the happy home
Ripping open further all the gaps between us
Suffocating power struggles
Never-ending, never subtle
Going for the jugular to cash in

I'm in over my head
I can't relate
Again, I'm bound and gagged
I can't escape.


02. Request

Temptation summons you in
Into a world where you're craving the sin
You're tasting it

Bite the apple
Stroke the serpent

Welcome to the freak show
No one will ever know
Where you stay, where you go
Send your rejects
No beginning, no end
To the messages sent
A disposable friend
Send your request now

Communities never asleep
Slaying their numbers of friends like they're sheep
Collecting heads

Pimp me up
Add me now

Welcome to the freak show
No one will ever know
Where you stay, where you go
Send your rejects
No beginning, no end
To the messages sent
A disposable friend
Send your request now

Hazard!
By-products of your existence
Caution!
Addiction knows no resistance
Sickness drags you further in the machine
Coward!
Take cover, run, hide behind the screen

Wickedly cover your tracks
They're searching, but you can slip through any crack
Into the void

Hack and violate
Flee and vacate

Welcome to the freak show
No one will ever know
Where you stay, where you go
Send your rejects
No beginning, no end
To the messages sent
A disposable friend
Send your request now


03. Let Go

Let go
No
Let go
No
Let go
No
Let go
No
Let go
No!

Denial, frustration
I've got it all under control
Exhaustion, inflation
Still I can take it

Things shifting and moving
I'm forced to take a tough step back
It's crucial and proving
That's how it's got to be

But it's so hard to let go
No!
No!
It's so hard to let...

Obsessive, compulsive
I give and take it as I please
Distrustful, convulsive
Faking submission

Conducting, policing
Ruling the job that must be done
The pressure increasing
Costing more sweat and time

It's so hard to let...
Let go...
No...


04. Terrorist

No escape now from the butcher's tango
Dancing daggers whisper steely hellos
White-suited soldiers on the march to help me
Promise relief, but it's already scalped me

Who is this terrorist
This kamikaze in my brain?
The sadist won't give in
He cracks the whip and screams my name

Leave me the hell alone
Caught in a suffering that won't let go
Can't stand this pain
Stuck in the twilight zone
I've got to fight the devil on my own
Please leave me the hell alone

Falling deeper down the rabbit's hole now
For reprieve, I swear I'd sell my soul now
Teeth are grinding, want to smash my skull in
Eyes are blinded by a freak incision

Who is this terrorist
This hijacker inside my brain?
A serpent coiled tight
With rusty scales of razorblades

Leave me the hell alone
Caught in a suffering that won't let go
Can't stand this pain
Stuck in the twilight zone
I've got to fight the devil on my own
Please leave me the hell alone

Bleed me
Leave me dry
Oh, God, I'd rather die
Than live with this sick kiss
This waking nightmare life

I mutilate myself
Distracting from the ache
The agony is fierce
It's causing me to break

I'd run a thousand miles
Just running to escape
The agony is fierce
It's more than I can take

Who is this terrorist
This nihilist inside my brain?
The pirate's mutiny
Is savage in its crooked game

Leave me the hell alone
Caught in a suffering that won't let go
Can't stand this pain
Stuck in the twilight zone
I've got to fight the devil on my own
Please leave me the hell alone


05. Pedestal

Hit the pavement

You see me through the eyes of spotlights flashing
The sound is blasting, life-casting scenery

You want me the way
You want me to be
Sometimes I get buried underneath
The weight of expectations

It's a long way to fall
From a pedestal built upon a skyscraper
You'll come crashing down so hard
You might not notice till you hit the pavement

You see me as a demigod
Not as a breathing and feeling being
Still I love to be your illusion

I think and I feel
I doubt and I fail
I bleed when I'm wounded, just like you
I need you, but I fear you

Caught in the spotlight
You'll take a piece of me
Extreme devotion
Try not to strangle me

I don't want to disappoint or let you down
But it's futile to try to please everyone all the time

Afraid just to grow
Afraid now to change
For fear in the end you'll feel betrayed
But after all, I'll manage

It's a long way to fall
From a pedestal built upon a skyscraper
You'll come crashing down so hard
You might not notice till you hit the pavement


06. On Hold

Rat race
It twists and turns
The maze I run
The lessons learned
It's leading to nowhere
Alleys of pain
To reach a light
To my dismay is not even there

Left alone
Kept on hold
No reception, lost connection
Left alone
Kept on hold
No attention, cursed invention

Extensions that pass me down
Another line
Another round
Lead into the dead zone
A bloodless voice
And tongueless words
Just empty noise invading me

Left alone
Kept on hold
No reception, lost connection
Left alone
Kept on hold
No attention, cursed invention

Hungry, I search for signs
Traces of life
To push rewind
Where names are no numbers
Quotas to fill
A faceless mass
A hoard to bill
A nameless mess

Left alone
Kept on hold
No reception, lost connection
Left alone
Kept on hold
No attention, cursed invention


07. Breakdown

The seeds had been planted in advance
Still all this despair has made a mess
Revenge on my lips tastes sickly sweet
In wake of my pride's bitterness

Devotion is poison, so toxic
Passion is venom, it's deadly
Love is a cancer, a liar
Weaving corruption through every organ
It's always been easy, too basic
Life is now dealing in credit
All of my debts come together
Fate is an agent wanting repayment

I made my bed, I crossed the lines
I tasted seduction so malign
It's purring a warning in my ear
Confirming the fears I define

Hypocrisy sickens and haunts me
Fuels the fire, the hunger
Wary and scheming, I want this
Dulling the blade was never an option
Skeletons buried much deeper
Hidden and padlocked, this closet
Proffers the nerve to point fingers
Throw accusations, keeping my secrets

What is this grief surging through my veins
Devouring me whole?
What is this sting crippling me?
A total breakdown

Thrown out of balance, caught off guard
Seeing the end before the start
In spite of my sense, I lost control
Leaving me battered and scarred

Feeling mistreated, resentful
Boundaries are bleeding, uncertain
Blurred by the act of commencement
No reservation and no discretion
Driven by predicting the future
Test every option ruthlessly
All these emotions confound me
Feel like a stranger in my own skin now

What is this grief surging through my veins
Devouring me whole?
What is this sting crippling me?
A total breakdown


08. March

Left, right
Left, right
Left, right
Ten-hut!

The bullhorns sound the alarm
Obedient and swift
Line up for the meat grinder
Run, lemmings, for the cliff

Join the fray
You will obey

March!
To the beat
March!
To the beat of the masses

[newsflash voice-over]
"Violence broke out once again today
When a group of radicals was denied access
To information as to why family members
Were being held for questioning
Shots rang out on the streets as officials
Were fortunately able to force those asking questions back into order"

Kneel when the tyrants tell you
Bow down and taste defeat
Damnation taking over
Without you noticing

Hate the fate
That you create

March!
To the beat
March!
To the beat of the masses

(Seething, crawling, abiding
Breeding, bleeding, hatching, dying)

Done in and crushed after all
By your pathetic ways
Big bosses finish you off
Sick of the space you waste

Take your chains
Endure your pain

March!
To the beat
March!
To the beat of the masses


09. Perfect

You're everything I want to be
My place is in front of your stage
You speak the truth, you sing my pain
You're everything I'll never be
You can do anything you want
You can get everything you need
Breathe into me the force of life
For you I'd suffer and bleed

You can do no wrong
Until you do
And then I'll do all I can till you sink and drown
You can do no wrong
Until you do
Don't shatter my fantasy
Or I'll make sure you go down

Just want to be part of your world
Escape from my reality
Distract my mind, fulfill my soul
I just want to be a part of you
I'll build you up, make you the king
Sit on this throne I built for you
We speak the same uncommon tongue
I love the place you take me

You can do no wrong
Until you do
And then I'll do all I can till you sink and drown
You can do no wrong
Until you do
Don't shatter my fantasy
Or I'll make sure you go down

You're perfect in every way
Don't change, or else you'll pay
You're perfect in every way
Don't change, or I'll feel betrayed
You speak the truth
You sing my pain
And I know it's all for me

You can do no wrong
Until you do
And then I'll do all I can till you sink and drown
You can do no wrong
Until you do
Don't shatter my fantasy
Or I'll make sure you go down


10. Fight or Flight

Walls are closing in again around me
Fight the urge to smash in my surroundings
I'll fight this, no looking back as I run
Seduced into a light that's blinding
Bolt; the only option for surviving
Invasion, the only option is...

Out
Cure my doubt
Useless spite
Fight or flight
Chaining me down

Race on down erratic roads that bind me
Bear the weight that's crushing down behind me
Torturous haze cramped into days
Wait; reward is just around the corner
Dazed, you pay for notions that were born
Out of your greed
Feeding your need

Out
Cure my doubt
Useless spite
Fight or flight
Chaining me down

Feel bloody, broken, bent
Blown town to town again
Firewood waiting to happen
To burn myself

The lure of the thrill quickly was killed
Now I want out
Get me the fuck out...

Out
Cure my doubt
Useless spite
Fight or flight
Chaining me down


11. Fine Lines

Whispers are fading
Replaced with apathy
Such regression in progression
Could we brave another hitch?
Charades we're playing
Nothing disturbs our sleep

Make, break the guidelines
What kind of life is this?
Break, rape the fine lines
Is ignorance our bliss?
Enticed by violence
You cannot look away

Can't afford to dig much deeper
Sickened by each further bite
Censored with meaning
To keep the wolves at bay

Make, break the guidelines
What kind of life is this?
Break, rape the fine lines
Is ignorance our bliss?
Enticed by violence
You cannot look away

Make the guidelines
Rape the fine lines
You're faking it

Too numb to function
Baited and hooked like prey

Make, break the guidelines
What kind of life is this?
Break, rape the fine lines
Is ignorance our bliss?
Enticed by violence
You cannot look away