Tracks

01. Spiritual Disease
02. Materalisic Lie
03. Depressed
04. Thoughts
05. Under The Sun
06. Inmost Fear
07. Searching
08. Martyrium
09. Mercy Lord



01. Spiritual Disease

Music & lyrics by Antestor
Living just playing the game
Lust for power lies within
Killing is no longer a sin
Striving for a mental illness
And slowly leaving reality

Lost without control
Left within you soul

Subconsciousness no turning back
Absorbed by their own needs
They cannot see where it leads
Left in an inner world of fantasy
Ending their lives as a human wreck

Playing just losing the game
Destroyed themselves with hate
Their souls will not be saved
Endless pain tormented forever
God's rage awaits for them to see

Lost without control
Left within you soul


02. Materalisic Lie

Music & lyrics by Antestor
Satisfaction death reaction
Lifeless being life deceiving
Materialistic lie existing till you die
The world cannot give nor let you live

Lustful bodies skinned to the core
Still crying out for so much more
Needing eyes filled with desire
Made to be just another liar

Turn away it's hell to pay
Not a very nice place to stay

When you die the needing eyes cry
There's nothing left to consume
All that you've worked for falls through the dust
There's only hell left to pay for your lust

Materialistic lie existing till you die
The world cannot give nor let you live


03. Depressed

Music & lyrics by Antestor
Fighting seems so in vain
Weakened by my own brain

Mindless torture blackening my thoughts
I'm flying away to my deepest decay
I'm falling through the black hole
I've lost my tears now I'm cold

Deeper deeper deeper I'll fall
I have no strength hear my call
My soul is screaming let me free
Take away this pain I see

Descending feelings where are you leading me
Desires of death rules in my darkness

In the shadows I'll die all alone
Blinding sorrow there's no tomorrow

There's no place my soul can hide
Slain by the thoughts that lied

Fighting seems so in vain
Weakened by my own brain

See the reason to exist
Jesus help me trough this miss


04. Thoughts

Music & lyrics by Antestor
Living inside restless and wild
Using your mind just like you're blind

Imagination hallucination
Distortion of the soul
Leaving you out cold

Nowhere to run there's no more fun
See no solution to your confusion

Don't stay too long
You'll never know what's wrong
Open up wide let God inside


05. Under The Sun

Music & lyrics by Antestor
I started to think of
What I've done with my hands
Worked hard and suffered for
Nothing but emptiness

Want to cry to die
Under the sun that's why
Wisdom and foolishness
Nothing but emptiness

Wisdom is better than folly
The wise have got eyes in their head
While fools walk about in the dark
But they meet the same destiny

Want to cry to die
Can you tell me why?

Then I said in my silent mind
I've the same fate as the fool

Want to cry to die
Can you tell me why?
Want to cry to die
Is it all a lie?

How can all my wisdom serve me?
The wise must die like a fool

All Man's days full of pain
All he does brings him grief
No comfort just oppressed
Nothing but emptiness

All his tears all his fears
Under the sun it breeds
Hopelessness wickedness
Nothing but emptiness

God has granted Man abundance
A gift of God power to enjoy
He won't dwell upon the passing years
Because God satisfies


06. Inmost Fear

Music & lyrics by Antestor
Never to feel nothing too real
The place of doom this empty room
Look inside the brain
The unconscious chain

All the time awaiting
Creatures my soul are taking
Who can break these chains
Only death remains

The inmost fear it's all so near
The evil within stored by sin
The dark side forsaken
Ready to be awakened

In my darkest hour
I can feel the power
Running through my vein
Driving me insane
Where am I to go
Still inside my soul

Reaching out from within
Who can forgive my sin

If I could reach the door
All this pain no more

No more...


07. Searching

Music & lyrics by Antestor
I'm searching for you I'm searching for me
For some answers to see
For something to come for something to go
That's all I want to know

God creates God destroys
Jesus dies so you could live
Drink the blood of Christ
The Son of Man was sacrificed

I'm searching for good I'm searching for bad
Where is the faith I had
For someone to listen for someone to care
I don't want to be a mayor

I'm searching for love I'm searching for hate
Can it be too late?
For something true for something false
There's someone who calls

God creates God destroys
Jesus dies so you could live
Drink the blood of Christ
The Son of Man was sacrificed


08. Martyrium

Music by Antestor
[Instrumental]


09. Mercy Lord

Music & lyrics by Antestor
Be gracious to me o God
In Thy true love
In the fullness of Thy mercy
Blot out my misdeeds

Create in me a pure heart o God
Give me a new and steadfast spirit
Do not drive me from Thy presence
Or take Thy Holy Spirit from me

Against Thee I have sinned
And done what displeases Thee
Thou hast hidden the truth in darkness
Through this mystery Thou teach me

Create in me a pure heart o God
Give me a new and steadfast spirit
Do not drive me from Thy presence
Or take Thy Holy Spirit from me