Tracks

01. Afflictions
02. Crossing Jordan
03. The Weight Of The World
04. Suffering Quotes
05. Heart Of A Lion
06. Farewells
07. You Are My Nemesis
08. Paragon In Charity
09. Draped In Misery
10. Grief Machine
11. Engraved In Our Hearts
12. Facing The End
13. Reach For The Skies



01. Afflictions

Nothing but silence
Inside these four walls
The worms of affliction
Take over my heart

The burning stakes of desire!
Just ember remains!
I try to light a new fire!

Start over again!

I'm breathing. (It's)
Relieving a proof of life
I'm bleeding, misleading my aims are gone
Save me! From my destiny

Free me! From this tragedy
I can't escape on my own!

In shades I live, in haze I drown

In pain and darkness
(I'm) alone with myself
The wolves of repulsion
They conquer my mind

The rusty blades of awareness!
Cut into my flesh!
I try to write a new chapter!

To be sane again
To be sane again!

I'm breathing. (It's)
Relieving a proof of life
I'm bleeding, misleading my aims are gone
Save me! From my destiny

Free me! From this tragedy
I can't escape on my own!

In shades I live, in haze I drown

In shades I live, in haze I drown
I try to fight this, my sadness my depression!


02. Crossing Jordan

Torn apart! Left me alone!
you passed away without a word
and all alone you walk away

Jordan! May your way be safe?
you lived a life in modesty
and you are always in my heart

Take, take my life
A sacrifice!
To bring you back!

Words cannot tell how
Great is the loss
I want you back right now
I'm longing for you!

Forever in my mind
My memories are all I've got

Stare at the starts
With empty eyes!
I want you back!

Life is worth living
Without you it's tough
I want you back right now
I'm longing for you

Forever in my mind
My memories are all I've got
I keep you in my heart
(In) remembrance of what we had

When no one understands
The darkness that I wander in
Your parting meant distance
It needs light shone from your heavens

Forever! Torn apart! Left me alone!

Jordan! May your way be safe?

I keep you in my heart
(In) remembrance of what we had

When no one understands
the darkness that I wander in
your parting meant distance
it needs light shone from your heavens

When no one understands
the darkness that I wander in
your parting meant distance
it needs light shone from your heavens


03. The Weight Of The World

Who carries the world on his shoulders all alone?
Never underestimate the power of mind
I distinguish myself in the tasks I cope with
(The) weight of the world rests on my back

Life shrouds (so) many aspects
And I want to descry them all
Never mind if they're good or bad
They are part of what I am

I conceive!
Myself! A construct to survive!

Empowerment!
David! Takes over Goliath!

An easy defiance will never be enough
Encourage myself with the goals that I achieve
I give it all, I give my blood my sweat my tears
I learn by failure ill get up and start again

Life shrouds (so) many aspects
And I want to descry them all
Never mind if they're good or bad
They are part of what I am

I conceive!
Myself! A construct to survive!

Empowerment!
David! Takes over! Goliath!

I carry pride within my heart
I feel like a king for the first time
Now that I burned down my whole rotten fortress
The king is dead, long live the king

Now that I burned down my whole rotten fortress
The king is dead, the king is dead, long live the king!


04. Suffering Quotes

Breeding something terrifying!
My biggest enemy is time!

From my poisoned blood
Is sounding a call to arms!
(it sounds) like a siren
My cancer my destiny!

My vital signs are fading
I need to be revived, be revived
This sickness consumes (all) my life force
I want to be revived, revived

I will conquer my demons
I'll be strong from within
Overcoming my pain
Overcoming my pain
Focus is laid on my powers
Try to regain my strength
Crawling out of this cave
Crawling out of this cave

I endure darkest hours
And try to turn black to white!

Life slips through my hands
And waits to return again
I made a choice
This fight seals my destiny!

My vital signs are fading
I need to be revived, be revived
This sickness consumes (all) my life force
I want to be revived, revived

I will conquer my demons
I'll be strong from within
Overcoming my pain
Overcoming my pain
Focus is laid on my powers
Try to regain my strength
Crawling out of this cave
Crawling out of this cave

When these words come crushing your world
You just take a deep breath and send them back to hell
And when your body is besieged
State clear who is the holder of this soul
And if hope is the last thing you've got
Be aware that its all that you need
And when everything turned its back on you
Then let your bruises shine and enlighten the world!


05. Heart Of A Lion

Born with the heart of a lion
But force fed deprived of free will

Ah! Everything's taken
I'll fight it back!

Robbed of ideas and desires
And instincts are oppressed by will

Ah! Everything is taken, I'll fight it back

Tear down the walls
Let me spirit soar
Bust all the chains
Existence is more than to breathe

I never thought!
That I'd forget my origin!

In allegiance to this earth
Refill the sources of life
I'm thinking back to our values
Our ethics will prosper this time

Were like charrion among the living
And solitude slows down our heartbeat!

Ah! Everything's taken
I'll fight it back!

Roaring with power and passion
And scaring the world with its teeth
We lost our zeal and ambition
Forgot how to scream out our rage

Tear down the walls
Let me spirit soar
Bust all the chains
Existence is more than to breathe

I never thought!
That I'd forget my origin!

In allegiance to this earth
Refill the sources of life
I'm thinking back to our values
Our ethics will prosper this time
In allegiance to this earth
Refill the sources of life
I'm thinking back to our values
Our ethics will prosper this time

Back to the days
When we were all predators
Willing to fight to claim what's ours!

Back to the days
When we were all predators
Willing to fight to claim what's ours!

Willing to fight to claim what's ours!


06. Farewells

I can't stop pretending
That there is something left
But still I feel your heartbeat in the dark
There are many reasons
For me to let you go
But I can't find the strength to give you up

Running out! Of words left to say
I would not! Use them anyway
(The) separation! Lines are drawn
What we shared! Is mostly gone

The empty glass I stare in
Gave comfort for a while
Still there's so much that I can't realize
The years we spent running together
The book that we have closed
And still there are some chapters left to write

Running out! Of words left to say
I would not! Use them anyway
(The) separation! Lines are drawn
What we shared! Is mostly gone

Take a look at our lives
Answer in honesty
Let me know if devotions left
Just go on with your life
And take care on your own way
Our journey ends on this road

Just go on with your life!
And take care on your own! Way
Our journey ends on this road!


07. You Are My Nemesis

We were meant to last until eternity
(Now) I rest my heart in sorrow
You are my nemesis

See my face in the mirror
I don't like what I see
Only broken reflections
Why did I lie, why did I fail

Why did I lie, why did I fail

Mourning! Never again, never again
I hope that we'll find an end, we'll find an end
Looking for solacing hands a warm touch in the cold
I pray to be safe! and sound in the end

Love turned black
Left me dead
From your poisoned lips I drank wine of denial
Your kiss blurs my senses
You are my addiction!

All alone in self-pity
You are all that I've lost
In a sea of devotion
Out of your heart into the dust

Out of your heart, into the dust

Mourning! Never again, never again
I hope! that we'll find an end, we'll find an end
Looking for solacing hands a warm touch in the cold
I pray to be safe! and sound in the end

Will I be relieved from sorrow?
Will I be relieved?

Just give (me) back my heart!
Before it bleeds to death!

When will I be freed from your spell?
From your spell

These tears will run continuous!
Your kiss will hurt forever!


08. Paragon In Charity

Where is your god, your savior?
Your paragon in charity
(You) preach love and benefaction
Your sermons are two-faced

Your god is unprejudiced
That's what you say, but I can't see
Your cross -- a symbol for pain
Millennia of bloodshed

Your altars seem rotten
And your confessions are false
Your choirs disagree
Sanctimony

Your sheep (have) been victimized
Your head, your good shepherd
Is just a wolf in disguise?
Sanctimony

The rosaries shall be the rogues
(You) built yourself a cathedral of doom
If you are god's chosen people!
I waive eternal life

From heaven (it) hails abasement
And sacraments are based on lies
Deny god and embrace life
Reward is freedom

Drowning in deep dishonor
Old fashioned words, (in) a modern world
Endangered that's what you are
You are about to die!

Your altars seem rotten
And your confessions are false
Your choirs disagree
Sanctimony

Your sheep (have) been victimized
Your head, your good shepherd
Is just a wolf in disguise?
Sanctimony!

The rosaries shall be the rogues
(You) built yourself a cathedral of doom
If you are god's chosen people!
I waive eternal life

I waive eternal life!

I! Waive! Eternal! Life!


09. Draped In Misery

The source of my unease, feelings that I fear!
I hate what I've become instead of loving me!

Emotions on the inside that I've hidden scratch the surface now!

Emotions that I've hidden scratch the surface now!
Fear my inner demons betraying what I am!

I observe myself,
look at my face,
stare in my eyes
I hate being myself

Wake up every morning with hope for a new life
Nights are coloured pitch-black; my days seem cold and grey

In misery I'm draped, in misery
This veil of black leaves me blindfolded
In loneliness I stand, in loneliness
This world has left me broken

Eeeyyyyah!

The source of my sorrow lies buried within myself
I hate what I've become instead of loving me!

Of loving me!
I need to set my heart free before I disappear
In sadness and depression, (I'm) in search for a cure

In misery I'm draped

In misery I'm draped, in misery
This veil of black leaves me blindfolded
In loneliness I stand, in loneliness
This world has brought me down to my knees

For the welfare of my presence I need to break these chains
For the love and dedication (to myself) I have to break away

Away!

For the welfare of my presence I need to break these chains
For the love and dedication (to myself) I have to break away
To break away


10. Grief Machine

Crawling through broken glass
But I feel no pain, no pain at all
Fed through the grief machine
Just lifelessness within my soul

My trembling hands on
A cold tile floor
I had a vision
The night before

That I am bleeding
My inside out
In need for shelter
I'd die without

According to my heartbeat
I'm already dead, already dead
I'm falling down a black hole
My sleep won't bring relief, won't bring relief

Wake up in fear
Scared of the dark

Cold hand touches my heart
But I feel no cold, no cold at all
Craving for inner peace
Colliding with an evil force

These revelations
Shown in my dreams
I cannot read them
I just hear screams

And still I'm bleeding
My inside out
In need for shelter
I'd die without!

According to my heartbeat
I'm already dead, already dead
I'm falling down a black hole
My sleep won't bring relief, won't bring relief

Wake up in fear
Scared of the dark

From the depths of hell my fate will rise
Profound and inferior, an opponent to warming lights
My nightmares start to become reality

According to my heartbeat
I'm already dead, already dead
I'm falling down a black hole
My sleep won't bring relief


11. Engraved In Our Hearts

Just for the sake of friendship
I sacrifice my blood

Just for the sake of friendship
I sacrifice my blood

The bonds of our relation
Are all that we have got
In times of deepest sorrow
(You) breathe air into my lungs

Take this oath
A precious promise
Take this oath

Sincere words have been spoken
Nothing tears us apart
Our fellowship's eternal
Engraved in our hearts

This alliance will outlive the storm
Burn down the walls that have replaced all bridges
When everything feels like a burning thorn
We feel alive, we feel alive

In troubled days we stand our ground
Because everything brings something new to fight for
United we join forces
To conquer solitude

Ourselves against this world
We let our torches shine
No one can bring us down
Our bonding is divine

Take this oath
A precious promise
Take this oath

This alliance will outlive the storm
Burn down the walls that have replaced all bridges
When everything feels like a burning thorn
We feel alive, we feel alive


12. Facing The End

Yah!

Nothing stays golden, nothing's forever
When fading (the fall of mortal life)
The autumn of time brings a change
When aeons seem so short in time

Wasted life only with taking
I regret my sins
My sins, my sins!
Turn back time, turn back time!

Turn the pages of the life I lived!
Ink stains on my hands like blood!

I pay the price for my sins
Haven't thought I'd end alone

Nothing stays golden, nothing's forever
Looking back at my achievements
Can't say that I'm proud of myself
Envy and greed
Have taken over
By now I'm repenting my life

Facing the end in sorrow
I regret my sins!
My sins, my sins!
Turn back time, turn back time!

All alone in the darkest moments
I'm begging for someone by my side
But with all the mistakes
That I have made
This will be hopeless, a hopeless fight!

Turn the pages of the life I lived!
Ink stains on my hands like blood!

Turn the pages of the life I lived
Ink stains on my hands like blood!

I pay the price for my sins
Haven't thought I'd end alone


13. Reach For The Skies

YAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHOW!!!

Darkness and agony we can defeat
Throughout (the) blackest nights we shine our light!

Reach out for a helping hand
Before you're drowning in quicksand
On troubled waters you set your sails
In stormy days destine your fate

I stand by your side
When life is cruel
And hard but we can make it
We stand hand in hand

EEEEEYAAAAHHHHHH!!!

When you're down, almost dead, I will be there for you
When the tides of your life try to swallow you whole
When the darkness overcomes
Try to reach for the skies when you're facing the ground
Try to prosper from the soil that has brought you down
When the darkness overcomes

Forget the struggle that you stepped in
You're not alone, we will begin
A new life filled with contentment
In these sad days (we'll) rise up again

I stand by your side
When life is cruel
And hard but we can make it
We stand hand in hand

When you're down, almost dead, I will be there for you
When the tides of your life try to swallow you whole
When the darkness overcomes
Try to reach for the skies when you're facing the ground
Try to prosper from the soil that has brought you down
When the darkness overcomes

When you're down, almost dead, I will be there for you
When the tides of your life try to swallow you whole
When the darkness overcomes
Try to reach for the skies when you're facing the ground
Try to prosper from the soil that has brought you down
When the darkness overcomes
I'm your bringer of light!