Tracks

01. Monday Morning Apocalypse
02. Unspeakable
03. Lost
04. Obedience
05. The Curtain Fall
06. In Remembrance
07. At Loss For Words
08. Till Dagmar
09. Still In The Water
10. The Dark I Walk You Through
11. I Should
12. Closure



01. Monday Morning Apocalypse

How long have you held me in this water
Much too long since my body is numb
How long have I been and where a I
And why are my hands tied
How long have I been your little altar
Your little toy and sacrifice
How long have you kept me in these waters
In a world where you're god
And we are all your servants

If I had known how to get out of solitude
I would have done it all to help you.
If we had known about the pain we caused you
We would have stopped just to save you.

How far did he go to get to know her
Much too far and we all must have been blind
It was an ordinary morning
Monday morning just before 9.00

And you are all my servants.
The guilt is yours not mine.

If I had known how to get out of solitude.
I would have done it all to help you.
If we had known about the pain we caused you.
We would have stopped just to save you.

And you are all my servants.
You will all oblige.
This will teach the lesson.
The guilt is yours not mine.

If I had known how to get out of solitude.
I would have done it all to help you.
And If I had known about the pain we caused you.
I would have saved you.


02. Unspeakable

In a time and a place where I had to bite my lip
To not be crying
Through the embers of the 2nd phase I had to
Choose another way of dying
And in dreams they come for you
Have they not come to see you too?
In silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try to conquering you

I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me

Hand in hand through the worlds I try to conquer
I have fate walking beside me
And through halls of forgotten bliss I have to
Make a choice or die trying
And in dreams they come for you
Have they not come to see you too?
In silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try to conquering you

I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me
Believe in me...

Why would you ever...
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I'll always hear you
I want to help you but you still never ask
Cause I want you to and I told forever that I
Would always help you to guide you when you're blind
Forever an ever
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you nerver laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me.


03. Lost

I have been walking this long dark road
And I have been climbing this tree so old
I have been wanting to let it all fall
It's making me
Turning me...

Inside out
Going outside in
As I lie here
Inside out going outside in

You promised me to leave me be
But I got lost and could not see clearly
Now I'm afraid of whom I used to be
Right now I'm just glad that you found me

Inside out
Going outside in
As I lie here
Inside out going outside in

Can I admit to you that I was wrong?
Will you forgive me for what I have done?
Would you leave me here wounded and bleeding?

Inside out
Going outside in
Inside out going outside in
As I lie here...
Inside out
Going outside in
As I lie here
Inside out going outside in.


04. Obedience

This is how we try to keep warm.
And trust me you'll need it when it's cold.
One more thing just so you don't forget.
Don't wake him when he's sleeping.
Try and hide before he sees you.
You can try but I'm that you won't.
Don't you cry so that he hears you.
I am sure that you won't.

And you'll despise yourself for dreaming.
Hate yourself for believing.
Lie to yourself in obedience.

For how long will it be this dark?
The light's been gone since ever.
How are we supposed to carry on?
Are we here forever?

And you'll despise yourself for dreaming.
Hate yourself for believing.
Lie to yourself in obedience.obedience.
And you will cry yourself to sleep.
Fight yourself to not give in.
Lie to yourself in obedience.
Does anybody miss her?
Can anybody hear her?
Does anybody scream her name?
Does anybody miss her

Try and hide before he sees you.
You can try but I'm that you won't.
Don't you cry so that he hears you.
But I am sure that you won't.

And you'll despise yourself for dreaming.
Hate yourself for believing.
Lie to yourself in obedience.Obedience.
And you will cry yourself to sleep.
Fight yourself to not give in.
Lie to yourself in obedience.Obedience...


05. The Curtain Fall

I have tried Ihave fought but for nothing
And I have touched Ihave reached just for something
I can't breathe I can't sleep but I'm fighting
Before the curtain falls

Step in and walk along
Breathe in and let it come
Sit down and watch the curtain fall

Step in and walk along
You've got to give into let it show
How to heat the weak to become
And praise the strong

Step in and walk along
Breathe in and let it come
Sit down and watch the curtain fall

You took my trust four granted
You shook my hand and smiled
I walked away believing
In a world that never was

You'll never walk alone
I'll mark your words and follow
You'll never be alone

So step in and walk along
Breathe in and let yourself go
Sit down and watch the curtain fall


06. In Remembrance

I remember your voice and your dreams
Your smile when you laughed
And your pain when you screamed
I'll follow your footsteps let them be my guide
Can you save me from being myself?
It's hard to be strong when you're stuck in a shell
If you don't desert me I won't let down

In remembrance
Of all the things you used to do
In remembrance
Of all the faith I had in you
In remembrance
And when I walk I walk for you
In remembrance of you

I remember when we used to run
Against any threat united as one
We faced all our fears
And we chased all the clouds blocking the sun
And through the haze that my sorrow created
I heard your voice and the promise you stated
And I...
Won't let you down

In remembrance
Of all the things you used to do
In remembrance
Of all the faith I had in you
In remembrance
And when I walk I walk for you
In remembrance of you

Cause I never saw you deserted
Or you never spoke so I heard it
Cause I would never let you down
Did you call me and I didn't listen?
Did I force you to make a decision?
Did I?

In remembrance
Of all the days we planned
And all the things we said we'd do
In remembrance
Of all the times we had
And the fate I shared with you
In remembrance
You'll always be my truth
Cause what I know I've learned from you
In remembrance of you
Of all the faith I had in you
Cause when I walk I walk for you
In remembrance of you.


07. At Loss For Words

Here we are once again.
Time to choose at the crossroads end.
Here we are stuck again.
Time to speak or to forever be silent.

It comes to a point where I can't take another lie.
The day has finally come.
Where I demand your silence.
Comes to a point where I can't accept another lie.
The day has finally come where I would die for your silence.

At loss for words.
And I'm short of breath.
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you.
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth.
You've got your chance right now.
Or to forever be...

It comes to a point where I will know you lived a lie.
And I'm the first on my knees to accept my naivety.
Comes to a point where I can't accept another lie.
The day has finally come for you not me.
To be

At loss for words.
And I'm short of breath.
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you.
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth.
You've got your chance right now.

Or to forever be bleeding...
to forever be believing...
to hide from me...
and leave me alone....

Here we are once again.
Time to choose at the crossroads end.
Here we are stuck again.
Time to speak or to forever be silent.

At loss for words.
And I'm short of breath.
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you.
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth.
You've got your chance right now.
Or to forever be...


08. Till Dagmar

Instrumental


09. Still In The Water

We're still in the water
It's getting harder to breathe
I've started counting the seconds
There's been no light here for a week
My only comfort has silenced
I just thought she was asleep
Her breathing stopped forever
And it's leaving me
Thinking I will never leave these waters
But I feel that life is leaving me
Thinking he will never ever free me
I'm stuck forever in a dream...

I'm caught forever in a dream...
How can I save myself from apocalypse?
How can I change his ways into thinking different?
Can I gain his trust and confidence?
I just need a minute of his common sense
If he'd only say my name
Cause to him we're all the same
In this world where he's king and deserving fame
We're his personal belongings
Asimple way to ease the lust
I have heard himself reason
And it sheds my hope to dust

And I should never
Why would I ever?
Let myself he held prisoned forever
They must have wanted to
Or maybe been talked into
Joining darkness forever

If he'd only say my name
Cause to him we're all the same
All the same and deserving fame
We're his personal belongings
A simple way to ease the lust

We're still in the water...
He said forever and screamed never
He promised god to love her now and forever
Time will change her
His laws will break her
Only to make her more pure and better
And now she's crying
No more denying
Asking forgiveness for the time
She's been lying
Nothing can harm us
We're made in heaven
I promised god to love you
...now and forever...


10. The Dark I Walk You Through

He walked her down the street
And stopped where he always left her
He kissed her on the cheek and said
-Honey I'll see you later...
And little did he know
That the words he said would never happen ever
He waved to her and turned
And that was the last time he saw her

I'm sorry for the times screamed
And the times I made you lonely
I'm sorry for the times I made you cry
And the times I didn't hold you
I'm sorry for the doubts I brought to you
I'm sorry for the dark I walk you through
I'm sorry for the times I put you through
Forgive me...

Did not walk far
Before I heard the sounds of sirens
Did I reflect at all when they stopped
And everything turned silent?
Did you scream at all?
I wish I would have been there
Did you scream at all?
I wish I could have been there

I'm sorry for the times screamed
And the times I made you lonely
I'm sorry for the times I made you cry
And the times I didn't hold you
I'd never lie
It's you and I
But I failed to keep my promise

If I could I would do anything to change it
I would spend all my time to make sure you would all be safe

I should have done it all so differently
I should have followed you like you wanted me
If I had known what fate would do to you
I would have prayed to her to take me too
I'm sorry that I didn't walk with you
I'm sorry that I did not listen to you
I should have done it all so differently
But I'm just me...


11. I Should

Remind me of what you said life had made you do
What did you do to make all you had fall trough
What forces you to make the choices that you do?
Are we to blame for all the failures that are you
Or should we blame you?
Should we blame you?

I should blame you for the falling rain
I should blame you for my constant pain
I should be there to remind you every day
I should

How come we bear the cross that you should?
How come we wear the wounds that you should?
I am confused, why is it me who is bleeding?

We never had a chance to make a choice you had
We were all too young to understand
Not like you
Not like you had?

I should blame you for the falling rain
I should blame you for my constant pain
I should be there to remind you every day
I should

I should walk you trough the halls of my own fate
I should let you taste the tears that fell in hate
I should be there to remind you every day
I should

Remind me of what you said life had made you do
What did you do to make all you had fall trough
What forces you to make the choices that you do?
Are we to blame for all the failures that are you?
Or should we blame you?

I should blame you for the falling rain
I should blame you for my constant pain
I should be there remind you every day
I should

I should walk you trough the halls of my own fate
I should let you taste the tears that fell in hate
I should be there to remind you every day
I should
I should
I should let you taste that fell in hate.
I should be there to remind you every day.
I should
I should...


12. Closure

Closure
So is this it?
Does time end here?
Is this what I fought for, and what I've gained?

What a fool I have been
Think life had more to offer
Is that I lie here, in remorse and suffer

And I hate you for doing this
And I hate you for saying that

I never did enough to ever please you
Never did enough for it to cease too

Affect me the way it does
Provoke me the way it must

And I'm also thinking I'm not enough
My war on time got worse and faster
The sands faught hard
And every day I lost a battle
And even tough I knew I lied
And even tough I saw the signs

The same three words each time
I'm fine

And I hate you for doing this
And I hate you for saying that

Never did enough to ever please you
Never did enough for it to cease too

Affect me way it does
Provoke me the way it must

And I'm still thinking I'm not enough
I'm ashamed of the life I've lived
I am afraid of what I have been
And it just became, just became enough