Crows feet tracks leave gouges in skin
Another day passes where I couldn't make you smile
A new ache reaches down and twists off my head
The dead marrow refreshed by dialysis

I remember when we were in love
But time has taken that from us

Cut out a bigger missing piece
And try to fit into someone, else
Estrangement is our new normal
Too scared to leave,
But so hard.... to stay

I have pictures - of who we once were
That life is over - that time is past
Looking for ourselves - in someone else
Constant Autumn

Sinews tangled into rebar barbed
A double cross twisted into bitter knot
The dull ache resumes but it feels like a fresh wound
Scabs peeled back, with hydraulic steps

Ark of ravens, all lone survivors
Alone in a world so muted now
Take in the slack 'till pre-travel ends
The blast wash a breeze of fresh poison air

No separate ways
Only good byes

Trading spite limb by limb
A heat map carved with every death
The cowling draped in a ragged step
Whittling your heart down to dust

Loose ends tied with trip wires
A neat bow on your grave
Look down into the hollow return
Stabbing relentlessly...

A tired heart that barely works
Still moving at the speed of light
Blood still runs, blowing through places
That make the body ache
Calloused hands can't let go
Hold on for another day
Stay without me, I have no one
Wandering in the grey

Who will hold the people that cannot be held?
Who will walk the crime scene and collect all the remains?
Who will find the pieces and put them in a box?
Who will sing to anyone, with no place in the world?

The phone shudders, tab the ringer mute
The annual reopening of wounds
Of a heart poured into the desert
And its address book of ghosts
Turn and walk away from the crater lip
And hope the desert dries your heart
Pat the ground flat and then close the door
From inside the burning mirage

The desert does not remember
The desert does not care
I can only see this moment
Through a veil of flames
As I cut away at the filaments
That tie me to others lives
It was someone else's loss
And has nothing to do with me, now

Aphasic thunder flickers behind a long flat of grey
Swirling dazzles of amber spin crumbling memories

Our eyes never meet again
Death does not heal wounds or hearts
It hides, the things we've done
Retract perdition

Mangled into who I am today
Steadily twisted into barbs
Alone with my despair and confusion
No desire to save your world
Only determination
Keeps me on this meaningless path
Crumbling laughter filled with madness and hate
Bees sting until they're fucking dead

A weight settled in broken people
Anchors sinking the heart in blood
Crawling even without wings
Killing, is the fate of bees

My last moments
Filled with hate
To my last drops of blood
I'm stabbing into the world
Only sadness
Is passed on
Scars upon scars
Becoming Dodonpachi

Flat scorched Earth is all there is to show
For an epilogue laid bare
A tired embrace - even past (death)

Guns on the table
Slides locked closed
The chamber concealed to all
Drizzle of embers
Specks against black
That fills me with monsters again

Back to back matching coffins
Just not to meet your gaze
Death to death the more hollow I get
While revenge replays

I want you to die slowly
I want to drag out your death
I want you to die screaming
I want it to fucking last

Hands full of sand slip away
Grains count minutes, days to years
Together a sinking raft of sheets
Cut apart the reefs, when I reach out

Finger glance off guard smiles
Recoil from the passing touch
The alone has become yours and mine
Stare until I'm blind island sun

So easy to forget
How to become someone else
The heart wants its way
It's hard to not be alone
On all sides, there is water
Filled with hurt
Drink from the ocean
The island sun

Charcoal mesh can't mask bitterness
The scorpion's tail a vine
My cutting edge dulled almost flat
There's history in the broken pieces
That are quickly reattached
There's memories soaked in gasoline that I can't forget

Without inside this other body, I am dead
You can share my sins, but not the guilt
Shuddering muted, replaced with glee
And I can wear my demons on my fucking sleeve

The smell of fresh cut grass and the open night sky
Interrupted within canopy
A momentary lapse that I put away
The hiss of intent draws closed
Immediate from the inside out
The seal purrs closed splash muted crisp
Gouging the color to chalk, out of lives
Die with you

Faith absolute to certain death
Evaccaneer doom true last
Betrayed in slaughter the next of kin
Black label true death begins at last
Tell. Me. Your true heart.

Leashed to cemeteries that I carry
With... Me... A weight across years
A long unbroken stride
Set to the poem of burning desert

The past is severed from memory,
The spent links swept away
Are the fangs in our hearts are now gone
Or is it anger that keeps us alive?
Chalk outlines tell nothing,
But continue without pause
My reflection shows ashes, I've found my place,
Seated at a table of wolves

The last and only wish
Can't be fulfilled
Balled up letters left unread
As if it was never written
The past stays the past
The dead stay the dead
Wall up memories so I'll forget
In the end there's nothing that you can take back

Merciless beyond reason
Sent alone to bare this terrible sin
Expected betrayal stings
Second loop begins

Flittering shrapnel rattles like a jar of teeth
The thrum and cacophony of insane bees
Corpses cork screw on fire
Inside a perfect vacuum

E-K-G
Can't see my wounds
The wolf never questions
The wolf only kills

The plate caught the round
But inside I'm still bathed in shrapnel
With concentration absent of doubt
Revel in the unimaginable slaughter

Rings map years, from hush to play
The past, it never disappears
Bereavement can be over written
But the ache still spears old wounds

Eraser rinds dust a rewritten page
The past, it never disappears
It pries you open and reads from you
Before you lost the will to tears

A finger of a life stripped to the marrow
A skeleton with nothing to show
A moment that's not carried downstream
It's something you can't let go
So hold on, with regret and tears
Look to windward
There's the nothing at the other end, but darkness
There's nowhere to return that's home

Strangers forever
Cross that bridge
Look to windward
Go on alone
Strangers forever
Alone with yourself
Look to windward
With regret and tears