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01. The Infection

Music by Maria Brink, Kevin Churko, Chris Howorth
Instrumental.

02. Sex Metal Barbie

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
Excuse me can you tell me what you've heard about my life
Maybe a dirty little fairy tale, a girl of the night
I heard that I grew up filthy, a trailer park queen
Drop out pregnant statistical teen
I know you heard about the bloody knife
About my daddy's perfect virgin and my mother's wife
You know I heard I don't belong in this game
Still you hold your hands in the air screaming my name
Let's go

Baby go ahead
I'll be your hatred and your pain
This is killing us all
I don't care if I fall
We're the dying, we are the damned

Baby go ahead
I'll be the villain you can blame
I'll be the belle of the brawl
Be the lust in us all
I'm the diva of the damned

I know I don't belong in this scene
Sex Metal Barbie, Homicidal Queen

Excuse me can you tell me the worst thing you've heard about me
Maybe that I'm a little harlot homicidal queen
You know I heard that I don't belong in this scene
Sex, Metal, Barbie, Whore, Attention Fiend

You know I heard that I'm a haters dream
Low class, White Trash - I'm so obscene
You know I heard that I should be ashamed
Still you hold your fists in the air screaming my name

Baby go ahead
I'll be your hatred and your pain
This is killing us all
I don't care if I fall
We're the dying, we are the damned

Baby go ahead
I'll be the villain you can blame
I'll be the belle of the brawl
Be the lust in us all
I'm the diva of the damned

I know I don't belong in this scene
Sex Metal Barbie, Homicidal Queen

03. Big Bad Wolf

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
Even in these chains, you can't stop me.
Even in these chains, you can't stop me.
Even in these chains, you can't stop me.
Even in these chains, you can't stop me!

Once upon a time
There was a nasty, little piggy filled with pride and greed
Once upon a time
There was an evil, little piggy typical disease
You see this little pig is slowly becoming my own worst enemy.
You see this evil pig she's a blood, blood, blood sucking part of me

Everywhere I go, you go along with me (she said)
Everything you get, is all because of me (I said)
Everything I do, you do along with me (she said)
No matter where you run, you cannot hide from me

She's got a hold on me
Maybe she is just what they want me to be

Even in these chains, you can't stop me.
Even in these chains, you can't stop me!

Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
I've been everywhere that you've been
Now I've got nothing to lose and everything to win
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
I'm already under your skin
'Cause I'm the big bad wolf, now let the games begin

You see I am the wolf,
And this dirty, little piggy lives inside of me.
You see every now and then,
I forget which one that I want and which one that I need.
I have come to realize
That both of them have become a necessity
I now have come to realize
That I become which animal I choose to feed

Anything I say you lie along with me. (she said)
Every song you sing is all because of me (I said)
Anytime I cry you always laugh at me. (she said)
No matter what you do you will belong to me

She's got a hold on me,
Maybe she's just what they want me to be

Even in these chains, you can't stop me.
Even in these chains, you can't stop me!

Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
I've been everywhere that you've been
Now I've got nothing to lose and everything to win
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
I'm already under your skin
'Cause I'm the big bad wolf, now let the games begin

Oh man, all these voices
I just can't get the fuck out of my head!
I can't, I can't, I can't

Even with these chains, you can't stop me.
Even with these chains, you can't stop me
Even with these chains, you can't stop me
Even in these chains, you won't break me
Even in these chains, you won't stop me
Even in these chains, you won't break me
Even in these chains, you won't take me
Even in these chains, you won't haunt me

Pig! Pig!
Pig, pig!

Stay the fuck, stay the fuck, stay the fuck out of my head!

She's got a hold on me,
Maybe she is just what they want me to be

Even in these chains, you can't stop me.
Even in these chains, you can't stop me!

Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
I've been everywhere that you've been
Now I've got nothing to lose and everything to win
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
Would you let me in?
Pig, pig!
I'm already under your skin
'Cause I'm the big bad wolf, now let the games begin
'Cause I'm the big bad wolf, now let the games begin!
'Cause I'm the big bad wolf, now let the games begin

04. Dirty Pretty

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
Dirty pretty [repeating]

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the fairest of them all?
Tell me I'm the perfect queen

Mirror mirror in my hand
Who's the fairest in the land?
Are they lining up for me?

Turn it on, tune it in, let it out
Turn it on, tune it in
Maybe I am not all that I've learned
Close your eyes, and you twist and you turn
I know I am more than they see
I'm everything, everything is me
I won't be what you want me to be
You fit your part in vanity
I don't want to be your dirty pretty
Turn it on, tune it in, let it out
Turn it on, tune it in, let it out

Mirror mirror unleash your tongue
Am I too old, am I too young?
Am I worthy of thy love?

Mirror mirror, you're so vain
Would you sell yourself for fame?
Are you the vulture, or are you the dove?

[Chorus]

I won't close my eyes, like you want me to
I am wild and free, I am untamable...
I'm more than you'll ever see
More than just your dirty pretty

Maybe I am not all that I've learned
Close your eyes, and you twist and you turn
I know I am more than they see
I'm everything, everything is me
I won't be what you want me to be
You fit your part in vanity
I don't want to be your dirty pretty

05. Black Widow

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
[TV playing:] (Yes the dangerous black widow is to be approached with caution, as the black widow's bite can cause death. The black widow is easily recognized buy her coal black body and red hourglass marking. She encases her victims with silk, and then kills with poison from her fangs. The male spider is not considered to be dangerous)
Dangerous...

Hey lady killa, come right in
It's time for you, let the show begin
You're so pretty, dripping sin
(You feelin' it? You feelin' it?)
Your eyes are screaming, I take the stage
A fatal dance, a primal rage
You pray for me, unlock the cage
(You feelin' it? You feelin' it?)

I think you ready, you want a show?
You wanna hear me? Good to go
(Eat the male. Kill. Eat the male.)
I think you ready, you want a show?
You wanna hear me? Good to go
Love me 'til you're dead, I will not forget
You'll still love me dead or alive
(dead or alive, dead or alive)
Love me 'til you're dead, this is what you get
You'll still love me, dead or alive
(dead or alive, dead or alive)
(I-I- you feelin' it?)

So here we are, make your move
We're going mad, I'll help our groove
You want control, I disapprove
(I-I- you feelin' it?)
So watch me close, as I unveil
I'm stripping down, your face is pale
You are the heart, I am the nail
(I-I- you feellin' it? You feelin' it?)

I think you ready, you want a show?
You wanna hear me? Good to go
(Kills with poison, kills with poison)
I think you ready, you want a show?
You wanna hear me? Good to go
Love me 'til you're dead, You will not forget
You'll still love me dead or alive
(dead or alive, dead or alive)
Love me 'til you're dead, this is what you get
You'll still love me, dead or alive
(dead or alive, dead or alive)
(is dangerous. The black widow is dangerous, will readily attack several times)

Love me 'til you're dead, this is what you get
You'll still love me, dead or alive
(dead or alive, dead or alive)

Love me 'til you're dead, this is what you get
You'll still love me, dead or alive
(dead or alive, dead or alive)
(the black widow is dangerous. 12 times)

(man has much to learn)

06. Sexual Hallucination

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
[feat. Brent Smith]

Red lips, a sinister tongue
(I'll taste you until I can't)
Our trip has just begun
(I'll fly with you 'til the end)
Psychotic voice
(You are in my veins now)
And there's no denying
(There's no denying)
As we both burst into flames

(You'll come down)
There's no coming down
(Higher ground)
Floating over ground
(Out of body)
Out of body
Inner mind
(I'm your slave)
This is what I crave
I'm lost, I'm saved

It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, fascination sets in
(Mystical, sexual hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual hallucination

You watch me come undone
(It makes me want you more)
I'm crawling into the unknown
(I'll follow you to the core)
I feel like I'm dying
(I'm right beside you)
You whisper, "We're flying."
(There's no denying)
We both converge as one

(Don't come down)
There's no coming down
(Higher ground)
We're floating over ground
(Out of body)
Out of body
Inner mind
(I'm your slave)
This is what I crave
I'm lost, I'm saved
It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, fascination sets in
(Mystical, sexual hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual hallucination

(I can barely breathe)
I can barely breathe
(I can barely move)
I can barely move
(I can barely) separate (me from) you
This is what I crave
To be your slave

Red lips, sinister tongue

It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, fascination sets in
(Mystical, sexual, hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual hallucination

07. Sick Like Me

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth, Mitchell Ray Marlow
Is it sick of me
To need control of you?
Is it sick to make
You beg the way I do?

Is it sick of me
To want you crawling on your knees?
Is it sick to say
I want you biting down on me

Are you sick like me?

Am I beautiful,
As I tear you to pieces?
Am I beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I'm beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say...

You're beautiful and sick like me

Is it sick of me
To feed the animal in you?
Is it sick to say
I tease the hunter like I do?
Is it sick of me
To watch the wicked way you thrill?
Is it sick to say
That I live to break your will

Are you sick like me?

Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
I am beautiful?
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I'm beautiful
As you tear me to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say

You're beautiful and sick like me

Am I beautiful
As I tear you to pieces?
I am beautiful
Even at my ugliest, you always say
I'm beautiful
As I tear you to pieces
You are beautiful
Even at your ugliest, I always say

You're beautiful and sick like me

08. Bloody Creature Poster Girl

Music by Brink, Kane Churko, Howorth
Some girls like diamonds
Smother them with fancy things
They hunger for the taste of glamor and waste
Rotten furs and murderous rings

You see sweetheart's need their prince's
Flattery and filthy pearls
Barbie doll misses with their Marilyn kisses
The original material girl

But I'm not like those other dames, baby
I'm your Bloody Creature Poster Girl

Make you crawl, make you beg, make you plead
(Bloody creature poster girl)
Make you want, make you hurt, make you bleed
(Bloody creature poster girl)

So toxic,
Psychotic,
Chaotic
Bloody creature poster girl

Make you love, make you cry, make you need
Deadly little slasher
Fucked up savage sweetheart
Bloody Creature Poster Girl

Baby, you can keep your diamonds
You can burn all your fancy things
I hunger for the taste of a painful ache
That can survive my wicked sting

Darling I don't need no prince's
I'm no damsel in distress
The only thing I'm needing is for you to be bleeding
From my homicidal kiss

But, I'm not like those other girls, baby
I'm your Bloody Creature Poster Girl

Make you crawl, make you beg, make you plead
(Bloody creature poster girl)
Make you want, make you hurt, make you bleed
(Bloody creature poster girl)

So toxic,
Psychotic,
Chaotic
Bloody creature poster girl

Make you love, make you cry, make you need
Deadly little slasher
Fucked up savage sweetheart
Bloody Creature Poster Girl

Your toxic girl
Your bloody slasher girl
Your savage sweetheart girl (girl)
Your bloody creature poster girl

Bloody creature poster girl
Bloody creature poster girl
(I'm your poster girl)
Bloody creature poster girl
(Your toxic girl)
Bloody creature poster girl
(Your bloody slasher girl)
Bloody creature poster girl
It's obviously a girl, girl, girl, girl
Bloody creature poster girl

Make you crawl, make you beg, make you plead
(Bloody creature poster girl)
Make you want, make you hurt, make you bleed
(Bloody creature poster girl)

So toxic,
Psychotic,
Chaotic
Bloody creature poster girl

Make you love, make you cry, make you need
Deadly little slasher
Fucked up savage sweetheart
Bloody Creature Poster Girl

Your toxic girl
Your bloody slasher girl
Your savage sweetheart girl (girl)
Your bloody creature poster girl

(Bloody Creature Poster Girl)
(Bloody Creature Poster Girl)
(Bloody Creature Poster Girl)

09. The Fighter

Music by Brink, Howorth, Churko, Nick Helbling, Michael Spad
I don't need you to save me
I don't need you to cure me
I don't need you and your antidote for I am my disease

I don't need you to free me
I don't need you to help me
I don't need you to lead me through the light

I will always fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
'Cause I am a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter

I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
'Cause I'm a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter

I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I'll walk into the fire, baby

All my life
I was afraid to die
And now I come alive inside these flames

You don't want me to love you
You don't want me to need you
You don't want to look at me for you will turn to stone

You don't want me to hurt you
You don't want me to bite you
You don't want me or my aching soul

For I will only fall and rise again
Your venomous heroine
I'm a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter

I will fall and rise above
And in your hate I find love
'Cause I'm a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter

I will not hide my face
I will not fall from grace
I'll walk into the fire, baby.

All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these flames!

I don't need you to save me
'Cause I'm a survivor
Yeah, I am a fighter

I will not hide my face,
I will not fall from grace,
I'll walk into the fire, baby

All my life
I was afraid to die
But now I come alive inside these
Alive inside these
Alive inside these
Alive inside these flames.

10. Bones

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
I've been waiting on my grave
Waiting for you to rescue me, my love
Come back from the dead
You have a bitter heart
And the perfect skull
I said love
All the hurt I need

There's just something about you
That feeds the addict in me
I promised you that I'd hurt you

You are my god
You are my soul
You are my savior
In a devil's robe
And I can't exist without you
I can't exist without you

You are my drug
My miracle
You are my cure
In this infected world
And I can't do this without you
I'm dying here without you

I wanna lie with your bones forever

Smear my lipstick across my face
Wipe off all these lies for me, my love
Don't need what you see
Kiss my wrists
You're killing me
You're my pill
You're everything I need

I'm running circles around you
Your skin is under my nails
I don't belong here without you

You are my god
You are my soul
You are my savior
In a devil's robe
And I can't exist without you
I can't exist without you
You are my soul
My miracle
You are my drug
In this infected world
And I can't do this without you
I'm dying here without you

I wanna lie with your bones forever

You are my star
I'm in your veins
You're all I have
I serenade your name
Now you can't exist without me
You are my god

You are my god
You are my soul
You are my savior
In a devil's robe
And I can't exist without you
I can't exist without you

You are my drug
My miracle
You are my cure
In this infected world
And I can't do this without you
I'm dying here without you

I wanna lie with your bones forever...

11. Natural Born Sinner

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
"So when they continued asking him
He lifted up himself, and said unto them,
He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her"

Listen closely, to what I'm about to say
I think I've heard just about enough of your hypocritical ways
Don't try to stop me now
Don't you make a sound
You've built yourself up oh so high just to tear me down

I'm so tired of you telling me
How to live and what I should not be
And I'm so tired of you telling me
What to do and what I don't believe
And after all that you're telling me
Why is there hate and only you can see
And I'm so sick of you telling me that I will burn
That I will not be free

This is my song
My red crusade
What will I say?
What will I do?
Maybe it's fear that leads your rage
Maybe you're me and I am you

So go ahead and point your fingers
Tell me who to love is it him or her?
When will you see this is a way, I'm a
S-I-N-N-E-R
Natural born sinner

I'm not gonna change
Stay out of my way
I don't need you to understand
That I'm already saved
Maybe you should stop, question all your pain
Can you look me in my eyes and say we're not the same?

Did you really think by pushing me
I would become what you want me to be?
And did you really think by hurting me
I'd open up and just hand you the key?
I know you're scared and don't understand
This is my life, this is who I am
What I do know is come Judgement Day
Before the Lord can you say the same?

This is my song
My red crusade
What will I say?
What will I do?
Maybe it's fear that leads your rage
Maybe you're me and I am you

So go ahead and point your fingers
Tell me who to love is it him or her?
When will you see this is way, I'm a
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R

So go ahead and point your fingers
I'll love who I want, whether him or her
When will you see that god made me a
S-I-N-N-E-R
Natural Born Sinner
SO GO AHEAD AND POINT!
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R
Natural Born Sinner

So go ahead and point your fingers
Tell me who to love is it him or her?
When will you see this is a way, I'm a
S-I-N-N-E-R
S-I-N-N-E-R

So go ahead and point your fingers
I'll love who I want, whether him or her
When will you see that god made me a
S-I-N-N-E-R
Natural Born Sinner

12. Into The Darkness

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
[Male voice:] You repulse me.
[Maria:] I am beautiful.
[Male voice:] I hate you.
[Maria:] I love you.
[Male voice:] How can you even love yourself?
[Maria:] I am worthy.
[Male voice:] You disgust me.
[Maria:] I am pure.
[Male voice:] I'm letting you go now.
[Maria:] Please don't go.
[Male voice:] You'll burn in Hell.
[Maria:] I will float to mortality
[Male voice:] There is no God.
[Maria:] God is inside of me.
[Male voice:] No wonder your father left you.
[Maria:] He should have protected me.
[Male voice:] Just take a closer look.
[Maria:] I will not!
[Male voice:] You're a whore!
[Maria:] I forgive you.

13. Out Of Hell

Music by Brink, Churko, Howorth
She's only 16
She has dreams of a girl
She thought she'd be in love
She thought she'd have the white picket fence
Now she stands on the corner
She sold herself to the streets
When the world gave up on her
She gave up on herself
She said, can anybody hear me?
She said, does anybody care?
As the monster pulls up slowly
He asks her how much she is

(You are worthless)
(Sweetheart you're worthless)

He's only 15
The world is passing him by
His father killed his mother
And drugs took over his life
Now he sleeps on the corner
The streets become his home
When the world gave up on him
He gave up on himself
He said, Is anybody out there?
Does anybody care?
The hopelessness is rising
There is only so much one can bear

I said, you are not alone
I'm standing by your side
I walk with you through hell
I walk with you tonight
We are the forgotten
That nobody wants to face
Together we can rise
Let's climb out of hell
You are not forgotten
I am standing by your side
Your struggle makes you beautiful
Out of Hell we will climb