Tracks

01. Dead
02. Falling Away From Me
03. Trash
04. 4U
05. Beg For Me
06. Make Me Bad
07. It's Gonna Go Away
08. Wake Up
10. Hey Daddy
11. Somebody Someone
12. No Way
13. Let's Get This Party Started
14. Wish You Could Be Me
15. Counting
16. Dirty



01. Dead

All I want in life is to be happy - happy

It seems funny to me
How fucked things can be
Everytime I get ahead
I feel more dead


02. Falling Away From Me

Hey, I'm feeling tired
My time, is gone today
You flirt with suicide
Sometimes, that's ok
Hear what others say
I'm here, standing hollow
Falling away from me
Falling away from me

Day, is here fading
That's when, I would say
I flirt with suicide
Sometimes kill the pain
I can't always say
'It's gonna be better tomorrow'
Falling away from me
Falling away from me

Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming of sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground

Falling away from me - It's spinning round and round [x3]
Falling away from me
Slow it down

Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming of sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground

Pressuring me, they won't go away
So I pray, go away

It's falling away from me

Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screamings of sound
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground


03. Trash

How did it start?
Well I don't know
I just feel the craving
I see flesh and it smells fresh
And it's just there for the taking
These little girls
They make me feel so goddam exhilarated
I fill them up, I can't give it up
The pain, I'm just erasing

I tell my lies, and I despise
Every second I'm with you
So I run away
And you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?

Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away

I don't know why I'm so fucking cold
I don't know why its hurts me
All I wanna is get with you
And make the pain go away
Why do I have a conscience?
All it does is fuck with me
Why do I have this torment?
All I wanna do is fuck it away

I tell my lies, and I despise
Every second I'm with you
So I run away
And you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?
Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away

I tell my lies, and I despise
Every second I'm with you
So I run away
And you still stay
So what the fuck is with you?

Your feelings
I can't help but rape them
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same
My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry, I just throw you away

Just throw you away


04. 4U

This shit right here is for you
All your faces I can see
You all think it's about me
I'm about to break
Is this my fate?
Am I still damned to a life
Of misery and hate?
You will never know
What I've done for you
What you are
Got me through
I'd do it for you
I could have, never lived
If it wasn't, for you


05. Beg For Me

Everyone is looking at me
I can't get out of bed
There is evil in my head
Everyone just let me be
Because when I hit the stage
It is gone and I am free

Goddam you say you'll get up for me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me

Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me

Tell me, how could this fade?
I am going in insane
And I could not have my pain
Everyone please let me be
Because when I hit the stage
It is gone and I am free

Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me

Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me

I feel the shame
I'm not insane
The things I feel now
Aren't the same
Who gives a fuck
If my life sucks?
I just know one thing
I won't give up

Everyone just let me be

Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, beg for me, beg for me

Goddam you say you'll get up with me
You're the crowd, come on give it back to me
You won't beg for me, be there for me, beg for me

Be there, for me


06. Make Me Bad

I am watching the rise and fall of my salvation
There's so much much shit around me
Such a lack of compassion

I thought it would be fun and games
It would be fun and games
Instead it's all the same
It's all the same
I want something to do
Need to feel sickness
In You

I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh made me bad

All I do is look for you
I need a fix
You need it to
Just to get some sort of attention
Attention

What does it mean to you?
For me, it's something I just do
I want something
I need to feel the sickness in you

I feel the reason, as it's leaving me
No, not again
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling
The flesh made me bad


07. It's Gonna Go Away

Fu.., fu.. fu.., I got this bad cold
And I got a life, I live it up
I live it up

It's gonna go away

I don't want this to go away
Go away
I'm so scared
Oh so scared
I can't think of going on
We all crumble
We crumble under pressure
Pressure
Pressure
Pressure

It's gonna go away

.... Go live it up
We're livin it up


08. Wake Up

Wake the fuck up!

Each day, more frightening
All of us wanna die
The pressure's tightening
I don't even want to try

Should I take all the stupid bullshit
What makes them think they can get away with it?
I'm not happy
I wish they'd just...

Wake the fuck up!

I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All our heads are blown
Let's take the stage
And remember why we play for

No more fighting!
I swear I'm gonna leave
Talking shit to spite me
I wish they'd just..

Wake the fuck up!

I can take no more
What are we fighting for?
You are my brothers
Each one I would die for
Please just let it go
All our heads are blown
Let's take the stage
And remember why we play for

Remember why we play for


10. Hey Daddy

Let me see - let me see
All my life has been - taken - taken
This demon - haunts me - haunts me
They're waiting - help me
Help me

You fuck me up
I'm gagged and bound
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them

Hey Daddy
They are taking me
Away
Biting
Facing him - what soul
My soul
They're eating - help me
Please help me

You fuck me up
I'm gagged and bound
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them

They say this thing inside me
Wants to get out
All it does is scream and shout
I'm trying not to let them out
They tell me to hurt myself
But I'm not gonna listen

You fuck me up
I'm gagged and bound
You pick me up
When I am down
I cannot live without them
I do not live without them

Hey daddy
waiting


11. Somebody Someone

I can't stand to let you win
I'm just watching you
And I don't know what to do
Feeling like a fool inside
Feeling all that you hide
Thought you my friend
Seems it never ends

I need somebody, someone
Can somebody help me?
All I need is some pain
Not just for me

Giving you with this and that
Giving gave me nothing back
It's all related to
All the things I do
Feeling like a fool inside
Seeing all the things you tried
I am nothing

I need somebody, someone
Can somebody help me?
All I need is some pain
Not just for me

I look, a sign
I need someone
Inside, to help me out
With what
I'm trying
I'm crying
I'm frying
In a pile of
Shit
I'm dying
I'm dying

I need somebody, somebody, somebody, someone
I need somebody, somebody, somebody, someone
Someone


12. No Way

Lately things won't go my way
Lately everything is grey
It feels like something
It feels like nothing

So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way

So I'm angry for today
Anger's the only thing I've made
It feels like something
No it's nothing

So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way

To live this way
Hating, feeling, falling
To the place where people haunt me
I can't help but give up
Falling to the place where people know me
I can't wait
To give them these feelings of hating
Keeping in side me
For all to take
Picking at me
They're ripping at me
Ripping at me

So I came too far
To end up this way
Feeling like I'm God
Feeling is no way

To live this way


13. Let's Get This Party Started

When it's crying
Take me on second place
Which you don't often find
I see a family walking
Always thinking of
Being somewhere else in time
So I fall face down
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle

Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign

Time is ticking
It makes me feel content
With what I have inside
Constant paranoia
Surrounds me
Everyone I see
Is out to get me

So I fall down
In a rut
I can't seem to get out of
Please wake me
Please give me some of it back
The feelings I had

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle

Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign

You make me feel insane

Sometimes I wish
I could be strong like you
It doesn't matter
Each time I wake
I'm somehow feeling the truth
I can't handle

Let's get this party started
I'm sick of begging you
You make me feel insane
Which I did to you
Let's get this party started
You make me feel insane
I want to be the one
To make myself sign


14. Wish You Could Be Me

I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then the shit would see
How tired I am

And how shit got the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are ripping me
You are taking my life and selling it,
Why should I complain?
At least it helps my pain
I am very cool now
And it's gossip 'bout my fame

I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then the shit would see
How tired I am
And how you get the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are ripping me
You fuckin pussy


15. Counting

I came back
To face what's growing in my head
Please get away from me
Take advantage of what I feel
Yes you do
One day you'll beg for me

So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting

You just see me as something you throw around
You were there for me
Beating down to the ground
Yes it always seems
You take more from me

So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting

It's funny how we've just started
They get the money for the things on you
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame
I only do it for the fun and the games

It's funny how we've just started
They get the money for the things on you
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame
I only do it for the fun
That's my game

So I'm saying nothing
Each day taking that much more
As I'm scheming all my fate
You will be there counting


16. Dirty

Keep knocking
No ones there
Pouring down
Near people

My head
By myself
All alone
Ripping my hair out
I hurt so bad inside
At least you can see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna laugh again

Keep hoping
Nothing to spare
So my life
Isn't quite there
Feel like a whore
A dirty whore
Such a whore
Dirty

My head
By myself
All alone
Ripping my hair out
I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through in my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna laugh again

I'll die again
I'll die again
I'll wilt again
Into you
You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck
You dirty little fuck
Dirty little fuck

You dirty little fuck
I will take it

I hurt so bad inside
I wish you could see
The world through my eyes
It stays the same
I just wanna laugh again