Tracks

01. Seasons Apart
02. When I Wake
03. Earthbound
04. Not Breathing
05. The Failure Epiphany
06. Morphine Cloud
07. Bloodflower
08. The Empty Stare
09. No Greater Sorrow
10. September Ashes



01. Seasons Apart

Take my hand; follow me through tranquility
Stay with me, you will see ardour where shadows grow
Feel my heart relieve your hope of this fading love
Winter came far too soon, but still the flowers bloom

And winter came too soon, and will the flowers die;
Bow down their heads under the cold, cold sky?
In a world going blind, who can expect me to see the pain
That i caused?

It's the end for me and you
Somehow we always knew,
'Cause the guilt we had to hide
Was right here at our side

Heal my heart before it breaks,
Shade these austere lights...
Heal that wound that came to me...
Take me away from here

Blindfold my eyes with thy grace...
The hope runs dry, and the words of comfort;
I heart how they cracked...
We are breathing the shame i am the one to blame

It's the end for you and me
Somehow we always knew,
'Cause the guilt we had to hide
Was right here at our side


02. When I Wake

When I wake, something inside my breaks
Holding back the time until I sleep again
Woe to me, I'm forever lost to thee
Woe to thee, you're forever lost to me

Let me sleep forever; fade into the clouds
Sublime emotion blowing in the wind

Human thoughts, like darkness to a flame
Depart not as thy shadow came
Your grave to be; fear, a dark realitiy...
Your sympathy; lost or never meant to be

My fright and the beating of my heart...
Close my eyes in silence and take me in your arms

What have you done?
Reveal your heart
Your suffocating silence
Tears me apart

So break this seal
Where the quiet remains;
Where lovers mourn,
Broken and torn

Only a wakeful silence of mourning shades...
Embodied forever into the stream...

When you sleep I sow what you reap...
But as you cry something inside me dies...

When I wake something inside me breaks...
In your eyes I watch how something dies

What have you done?
Reveal your heart
Your suffocating silence
Tears me apart

So break this seal
Where the quiet remains;
Where lovers mourn,
Broken and torn


03. Earthbound

The sorrow of my soul, earthbound and cold
The tide will never turn
I've been dead for years, drowned in all my tears
Have you forsaken me?

Frequent days of loss, crawling to the cross
The silence screams so loud
Conquered by the sun, my fate is done
I'm pulling down the shroud

Blazing through my eyes, your tender disguise
So far out of reach
A life of dismay turns into grey
Will you abandon me?

Here in the light it's pitch black night
A fever on the rise
Dying from within and reborn into sin
I'm tearing up the sky

Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me calling you
Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me haunting you

This sentient cage,
Cutting through time with a blunt smile
Would you help me slit my wrists?
See me cry, help me...die!

So frail the veil of life - so beautiful the face of death
Suddenly reveries bloom into night's heavy drenching

And life leaves you cold, weary and old...
It's hard just to breathe
You know me so well, I'm going through hell
Won't you please, follow me?

Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me calling you
Feel the world inside;
The ghost of me haunting you

You cracked my ice, and I wept
You covered the sun, and I slept
You whispered the truth, and I smiled
You kissed my soul, and I died


04. Not Breathing

You look so calm. Are you sleeping?
I'm closing the door to our illusion
Where I lost myself in windswept dreams...
Two worlds so far apart

I remember when I gave her my Eden;
From this dry land ardour now sleeps forsaken
All the fear Inside of me that I don't want her to see;
Willl overwhelm this life and feed my hopeless strife

And she came to me; Insomnia...
Pounding in my chest...
Oh...lay my soul to rest!

Her heart like lacuna and lacerated wings,
Burning inside the echo of our dead union
I'd like to rest inside the core of your very soul,
'Cause your eyes are deeper, much deeper than any well!

But she stayed with me; Insomnia
She paralyzed my heart
And tore it apart

I know I'm alive but not breathing...
Can you see me?
And you know how I tried. Please believe me
Can you hear me?

My eyes, my soul...the scars inside afflicted
On my own, by the world outside,
Where love lies starving on the ground

I know I'm alive but not breathing...
Can you touch me?
And you know how I tried. Please believe me!
Will you love me?


05. The Failure Epiphany

I see your picture and all I feel is sorrow...
No hate no love...no barren signs from above

Can I be you for a while?
Let me see
Can you be me for a moment?
Let it be...resolution

Only regret seals the night where I uncover myself...
For those bygone days amid scenes of dread

Resolve my love into sheer mercy...
God knows how many mornings I woke in torment;
Staring into the daytime void, lost in fault and wonder...
Walking the fields where poisoned flowers swell

Embittered into revulsion

Confused I face how stern and devious is reality
You conquered me with your delusion,
Then I vanished into blank pages already written

Endurance and devotion kills each other,
As a demon enters our room
And something dies...
Something dies inside of me
Drowns in the vale of tears around me

With a beacon of hope we could levitate like dancing on air...
And there in that moment we'll at last find solace;
Abundance shining greater than any dream

The morning breaks so cold...so cold
My face looks so old...so old...
I rend my nails on the wall I've built around me
Only in the shade can I be free...
Only in the shade can I be...me


06. Morphine Cloud

One single night, one single day
Before it all just sweeps away...
With the paradise I do not know,
Through the joy I never had
I'm all alone on my isolated throne

Why have you forsaken me?

The days outnumbered themselves into the grey
And life cries, a dream dies out into the blackness;
Stretches for an empty cup; a chalice to collect the tears
That I keep to myself

I gaze upon the mystery, this lovelorn identity...
Frozen beyond the echoes of laughter

This morphine cloud hanging over me
Like a snow-white curtain;
This beautiful haze overruns me
So I erase myself from you; the cure for my sanity...
And here I am, unwilling to forgive myself

So lost in this remedy, your spirit is haunting me;
consumed by indifference
I scream in your silence where shadows conceal me...
I'm cursed to search for you

Oh feeble, ungrateful heart;
Paralyzed you drown with me
Intoxicate this bitter reality
Under the screens of apathy

Oh feeble, ungrateful heart;
Paralyzed you drown with me
Intoxicate this bitter reality
Under the screens of apathy

The dream died before it was born,
Innocence is lost...And so am I
But still I pretend to be strong
Still I wonder where I belong

You whisper to me gently in my sleep
To leave this world behind
And I gaze upon the mystery, this lovelorn identity...
Frozen beyond the echoes of laughter


07. Bloodflower

I've made a good living by dying;
Endless wait, grey solace ruling my mind
Constrained by time and drained by the cold,
Still I found myself shivering under the rising sun

You are the star, you are the moon
You are the soil where shadows bloom
Casting a light which brings me peace
Where the caverns of death will freeze

The flower never grew
But I love you just the same
Even though like a bird you flew
I will you just the same

I am the blood; a fire in your soul...
And I will grow in landscapes so cold

Oh, how I feel you in the every single detail,
As you lurk inside my tortured dreams
There is no hope as long we walk this earth,
But you should know my universe screams,
It screams for you

I cry for you!

The flower never grew
But I love you just the same
Even though like a bird you flew
I will love you just the same


08. The Empty Stare

My mind wandered off in the distance,
Where I am far from all that cages me
All I could think of Death
Her name disguised in silence;
Angelwings and ravenclaws...

The shredding of my soul,
Steeped in a lavender smile

In thy eyes;
The womb of thy despair
Embrace my life
Within thy empty stare

The overcast sky consoling me,
The fortitude within my grasp
I think to myself I'm the sad clown;
Smiling reluctantly, but crying behind the iron curtain

These tears don't fall so easily

In thy eyes;
The womb of thy despair
Embrace my life
Within thy empty stare

Damn the illusion which fell upon me!
The bitter wine of reality poured all over my face...
And I despise what I've become;
Just a terrified man, secluded and trapped in time

In thy eyes;
The womb of thy despair
Embrace thy life
Within the empty stare
Together let us roam
Through endless dreams of night
The moon as our limit
And our souls as guiding light

But how can I refuse my empathy to be resolute?
'Cause it feels like... I'm dying
I have nothing to gain where there is nothing to lose


09. No Greater Sorrow

I am bewildered by this cruel fate -
clouding my judgement.
Sowing the seeds of life in soil of ruin...
the winds feel silent and kissed Death's wings.

It's colder than before, still the winter's passed
and springtime haste fully took all it came for.
Often I stare at the clouds drifting by, imagining you there -
like formations of a dream adrift from me.

The moments are gone but you remain,
If we had wings we would leave the seasons behind -
escaping this quiet shroud always haunting us.
We sleep now in the ashes blowing in the wind.

There is no greater sorrow than to recall happiness in times of misery

And there you are - alone like me;
the mountain I must climb;
the lush garden I fail to nurture...
And when I have nothing to say,
I'll let this slip away.

I wonder who we are now - what we're supposed to do
Each day only shadows comfort me and you...
Each day we let it pass and then we die...
As dust fall from heavens fire.


10. September Ashes

September begun with a goodbye to my heart
The pictures you put in my head brought tears
Behind my icy hands

Come closer; breathe my name and nothing more
We are mere whisperings of a heartfelt elegy

So when I scream for you, do not answer me
When I beg you to hold me, just walk away...