Tracks

01. Gag Order
02. Angel With Horns
03. Habitchual
04. In The Name Of Love
05. Inner Monster Out
06. I'm Your Mind
07. My Disrupted Reality
08. A Smile Upon Death
09. Whatever Our Fortune
10. A.D.D.
11. Waste Of Life



01. Gag Order

Once more I open up the door
A group of people stare
I try to ignore
Overcome by fear

I wear the mask and try to be
Witty and bold and sweet
I choke on my thoughts
All my lines are blocked

A simple answer would suffice
(Why did I say nothing?)
My mind is rushing, I'm in silence

The storm calls me back home
Nothing to feign
I won't personify again
The storm calls me back home
Nothing to feign
I won't personify again

I look up to the pitch-black sky
Sounds of rain loud outside
Alone I give out
I let myself down

I sing to quieten this shriek
Of nostalgy in me
Wary in my words
All thinking is blurred

I can't express what's in my mind
(I hear them whispering)
No one knows what I hide inside

The storm calls me back home
Nothing to feign
I won't personify again
The storm calls me back home
Nothing to feign
I won't personify again

The storm calls me back home
Nothing to feign
I won't personify again
The storm calls me back home
Nothing to feign
I won't personify again


02. Angel With Horns

Guilty-free
I will degrade and tease
I'm the sparkle
Make you smile and live

I'm your sunshine
I'm your beacon light
I am your salvation
A secure temptation

You pretend
You want to be my friend
All you try
Is to be by my side

All nights you are drawn to me like
A bug is pulled by light
Your darling cries and waits for you
Bestow misgiving on the ones
That never leave you alone

I am the innocence you wish
You could've kept, you had within
I am the evil that you hide
That lives inside you every day
When you ask me the reason why
I screw with your mind, make you cry
You'll find the answer deep inside
Just close your eyes
Just close your eyes
Just close your eyes
Just close your eyes

Sanctify
Yourself when by my side
Bury deep
All disregarded lies

Meagerly
You act the part you play
Enduring misery
I will be your escape

You know you'll never touch me like
You dream of when you hide
Unreachable, I am the one
The peace you seek, you'll find it in my face
It brings you to disgrace

I am the innocence you wish
You could've kept, you had within
I am the evil that you hide
That lives inside you every day
When you ask me the reason why
I screw with your mind, make you cry
You'll find the answer deep inside
Just close your eyes
Just close your eyes
Just close your eyes
Just close your eyes

I am the innocence you wish
You could've kept, you had within
I am the evil that you hide
That lives inside you every day
When you ask me the reason why
I screw with your mind, make you cry
You'll find the answer deep inside

Just close your eyes
Just close your eyes
You know what I am
An angel with horns


03. Habitchual

Feeling the need to do it
One more time again
Temptation reigns before
I stop and start the end

Blurred into ecstasy
This animal starts to bite
Sinking its teeth deep
I lose the will to fight

Rewind this pain
Let me start again
Crawling into my world of torturing

I can feel
This surreal
Through the day and night
We're left behind
With this fear
Alone here
There's more pain inside
There's no time left to cry

Trying once more again
To deny my own desire
Seems like my hand are tied
I need to cut the wire

Losing control again
Of my actions and fate
I have to give into pain
But I can't lose the faith

Rewind this pain
Let me start again
Crawling into my world of torturing

I can feel
This surreal
Through the day and night
We're left behind
With this fear
Alone here
There's more pain inside
There's no time left to cry

I can feel
This surreal
Through the day and night
We're left behind

I can feel
This surreal
Through the day and night
We're left behind
With this fear
Alone here
There's more pain inside
There's no time left

I can feel
This surreal
Through the day and night
We're left behind
With this fear
Alone here
There's more pain inside
There's no time left to cry


04. In The Name Of Love

In deepest joy I take thee
I promise love for eternity
I'll kneel to thee and clean the blood
That deep red stains the floor

In the name of love
Violence finds its way inside
I crave for more

A private beating, public kiss
Of this ill-treat is my bliss
I spread the skin-color disguise
My mask for bruises that I hide

In the name of love
Violence finds its way inside
I crave for more

In the name of love
I'm loyal till the day I die
Can't get enough

Love me
Hurt me
Kill me
Force me
Make me obey

Love me
Hurt me
Kill me
Force me
Make me obey

In the name of love
Violence finds its way inside
I crave for more

In the name of love
I'm loyal till the day I die
Can't get enough


05. Inner Monster Out

Walking down streets in the night
Searching for clues
(I dare you to try)
(I'm smarter than you)
I'm working your head
Understanding you
(I dare you to try)
(I'm smarter than you)

I can gather what you do
I'm just like you
I can grasp your point of view

That side of me I never knew
Before I tried walking your steps
Inside of me resides a wild nature

I figure out your motivations and needs
(Accept what you like)
(And how good it feels)
Keep telling myself this is a good deed
(Accept what you like)
(And how good it feels)

When I let my darkness take control
Your one true soul
I will find out where you'll go

That side of me I never knew
Before I tried walking your steps
Inside of me resides a wild nature

One who fights the fire of hate
With the atrocious
Can slide and get caught like a bait
To the ferocious
He who bargains with the shadows
Deals with the wicked
He can cross a line too narrow
Get morals twisted

I let my darkness take control
Such a side of me I've never known
Before I tried walking your steps
Confusing my role
Your delusional tragical soul

I can gather what you do
I'm just like you
I will find out where you'll go

That side of me I never knew
Before I tried walking your steps
Inside of me resides a wild nature


06. I'm Your Mind

You can hide nowhere
I'll be always there
When you're about to fall
I will see it all

You can try to run
But I'm everyone
I am in your

Brain
When you think you're alone
I am the one
Keeping you company
Pain
I am there to remind you
Of all your faults

Haunting you at night
With the reason why
You can't sleep at night
Crave for peace of mind

Brain
When you think you're alone
I am the one
Keeping you company
Pain
I am there to remind you
Of all your faults

Tied, under restraint
Your thoughts are taint
You fall and run again
I know your darkest lies
I can hear your silent cries

Brain
When you think you're alone
I am the one
Keeping you company
Pain
I am there to remind you
Of all your faults


07. My Disrupted Reality

Where are you?
Gone again after a smile
Who and what are you?
That vanishes like charm

I don't care
People tell me you're made-up
There must be a reason
Why you're out of sight

Dressed in white
Uneven and untrue
Reality is a point of view

Stand between me and the chaos out there
Do not walk on me again
Bring heartsease and more anxiety
My shivery friend, sweet enemy

Mocking me
Right before my eyes
Make all of my friends
Believe I lost my mind

I close the door
Too frightened to see you
I make myself look like a fool

Stand between me and the chaos out there
Do not walk on me again
Bring heartsease and more anxiety
My shivery friend, sweet enemy

(Stand between me and the chaos out there)

Stand between me and the chaos out there
Do not walk on me again
Bring heartsease and more anxiety
My shivery friend, sweet enemy


08. A Smile Upon Death

Angel he claims he once felt
No trace of it is left
To die is gain
Will not cry anymore and in vain

What should we wait for?

Colder than her lifeless heart
He smiles, celebrates
Tranquil eyes
Looking at us, he says a prayer
Life goes on

He questions not her torment
He fears not how it ends
Thoughts of his bride
Will dry all his tears

Colder than her lifeless heart
He smiles, celebrates
Tranquil eyes
Looking at us, he says a prayer
Life goes on

What should we wait for?
It's party time

Colder than her lifeless heart
He smiles, celebrates
Tranquil eyes
Looking at us, he says a prayer
Life goes on

Colder than her lifeless heart
He smiles, celebrates
Tranquil eyes
Looking at us, he says a prayer
Life goes on


09. Whatever Our Fortune

Blasted, destroyed, all brought to ashes
Blackness in the sky
The lust for riches and power
Of one man brought the demise
Of almost all life
All but few children survived
On their shoulders the hope lies
To hold up they strive

Whatever our fortune
We strain 'til we stand no more
Whatever our fortune
We're bound to the core

He looks outside from his deathbed
Calls his son and cries
Begs him to repair his damage
To forgive his sins
He ravaged nature with obsession
It succumbed to his oppression
He gives out and leaves his child
With a mission in mind

Whatever our fortune
We strain 'til we stand no more
Whatever our fortune
We're bound to the core

Come rain or shine
You just keep on breathing
Block the sounds of suicide

Whatever our fortune
We strain 'til we stand no more
Whatever our fortune
We're bound to the core

Whatever our fortune
We strain 'til we stand no more
Whatever our fortune
We're bound to the core


10. A.D.D.

Oblivion shields the world around
Voices all fade away
The more you talk, the more I'II drown

Unable to act socially
I will storm out
The restlessness in me screams loud

A thousand seconds fly and turn to
Hours wasted, life suspended
Words just seem to always slip by
I lose control

Cannot keep track of what was done
Don't know what I just said
Too sick of all the boring chores

Always late, never start and end
Nothing gets done
Can't keep track of my racing thoughts

Reckless actions rule my nature
Bursting out for every mistake
Zoning out, I lose my focus
I'II take the wrong course

I am living in my own
Distrait reality
Can't keep track of racings thoughts
Inside my head
Bursting out for every small
Mistake that people make
Too sick of all boring chores
My mind has gone astray

I am living in my own
Distrait reality
Can't keep track of racings thoughts
Inside my head
Bursting out for every small
Mistake that people make
Too sick of all boring chores
My mind has gone astray


11. Waste Of Life

We don't know right from wrong
We cannot discuss rationally
We're not allowed to think anymore
Just eat the bullshit they feed us on the screen

We are the toxic waste
Polluted minds that just go with the flow
Devouring the disgraced
Cheap entertainment, fluoride, and GMOs

We are straying
They got us

Hypnotized
By our own conventions
We follow
We're numbers
Renounced
Power of decision
We're stillborn
Inside

We swallow all excuses
We are the sheep misguided and led on
We'll take all the abuse
And even thank for all the pieces we are thrown

Un-oriented
They'll get us

Hypnotized
By our own conventions
We follow
We're numbers
Renounced
Power of decision
We're stillborn
Inside

We are straying
We are the disgraced
We are straying
We are the disgraced
We are straying
We are the disgraced
We are straying
We are the disgraced

We are straying
They got us

Hypnotized
By our own conventions
We follow
We're numbers
Renounced
Power of decision
We're stillborn
Inside

Hypnotized
Hypnotized
A waste
A waste of life