Don't mistake my silence for ambivalence
There are no words for someone so insolent
It's not worth the fight against your ignorance.
Don't mistake my silence for ambivalence
There are no words for someone so insolent
It's not worth the fight
Stupidity always survives.
How dare you judge my intentions
As though you are really in a much better position
As if you know what lies behind them.
Let every person be a human
Without clamouring to be above them
Your crusade for virtuosity
Is dictatorship masked as morality.
So much destruction in the name of perfection
So little acceptance, so little perspective
I have never taken so much hate as I have from your love
I have never felt so ripped apart as I do in your arms.

Can't build a castle in your head
Then complain that nothing you see looks like it
Nothing ever looks like it.
This isn't what you want it to be
But nothing ever will be.
Can't draw an angel with your blood
Then complain that no one's ever good enough
That perfection isn't love.
It's never who you want it to be
But you'll always be betrayed by that desire and that dream.
Stop trying to convince yourself
That it will be worthwhile
Because you'll miss all the action
whilst you wait for better things to happen.
It's time to stop running away for a second
And stand still in the moment
Not every place you land
Will be quicksand.
It's time to stop dying inside for a second
Just remember all the moments
When every breath you took
was laughter.
To the truth I must surrender
It's not going to get any better
This is my resignation letter
To every little hope I fell for
Every brittle love I lied for
...That fool in me is dead.
That fool in me is dead
Desire no longer persists
Against this heartless kiss
That bites my tongue into bits.
If I've learned disillusion, why can't I apply it?
Every time that I mistake a passion for a life line
A lover for a lifetime
Fireworks for landmines.
You can figure out the answers and wrap them up in bitterness
But having cynicism makes no fucking difference
It will not protect you
From having your heart broken
From losing all your loved ones.

Could spill blood to paint my lips red
If only for a stolen mistake
If only for a bitter taste
If only to have something
Something to wash away
But the weight of years of heartache
Could never justify it
How you allow your discontent to make you so destructive
Just to case a light
Just don't lose your sight
And the wait for years of heartache
Could never justify this
Ripping all my roots up just to chase an empty promise
Cos it was when I ran towards you that I knew you were behind me
It was when I fell down to my knees that your love had to elude me
It was when I ran towards you that I knew that I was losing
And every time I look for you I only see you leave
This hope that I am chasing
It is just a memory
It is never coming back
Never sinking to reality

That summer was so long ago
When everything was gold
We always seemed to find our way
We never felt the cold
Now you tread away from me
Upon the dirt that lies between
Two conflicting paths
I can feel myself become your past
I wait on these grounds of division
Paralysed by indecision
Now it's getting dark so fast
How i wish the warmth could last
But this autumn in you
It is nothing new
I've seen what those shades disintegrate into
The autumn in you
I always knew
It would make me place my head into my heads and tear it in two
The little hope that had been left within a flaking structure
Now falls from a sinking ship
To cling to floating anchors

I am beneath the dirt and I acquired the sickness
The fall of inspiration
The rise of desperation
I am complacency
I am apathy
I see neglect for all humanity
The floodgates open
While I'm alone
I see them all
Everyone I've known
I'm a figure
A figure in the shadows
Dragging frail wrists off the floor
Dust has formed around your eyes
I am that ghost
That ghost in the night
So many drives through pitch black woods
I'll cross a line in my book
Save me from this self fulfilling prophecy
I'll always keep my distance as I will be forever

Everything is gone
Flushed through the drain
Into the gutter

No more of anything

This, this is the end
This is the end of everything
This, this is the future
The future of nothing

Untouchable memories
From the past
Horrid visions
And thoughts of the future

This, this is the end
This is the end of everything
This, this is the future
The future of nothing

This, this is the end
This is the end of everything
This, this is the future
The future of nothing

This, this is the end
This, this is the end

Our human ways
how they betray
the controlled perfection that machines create
So desperately preferred like fantasy
So tirelessly pursued like God
But the race of desire will never finish
Because discontent prevails in us
Against reality
Against love
Against the hope that this would be enough
But delusion remains to tantalise
and to nurture your distracted side
until life becomes a destruction site
You tear the truth apart to find
A single shred of hope outside
Outside reality
Outside of love
Into dreams of what we 'could' become
Outside reality
Outside. Of. Love.
I burn this flame for you
A light that holds no hope
A flame that gives no heat
I burn this flame for you
A spark that goes unnoticed
A pain with no release
Keep within your clouded sight
a bird in flight
a burning light
that never gets closer
that never arrives.

If you think that I'm willing to pay
For empty words of praise
Then you can think again
If you think that I want to compete
For the hype of a transient scene
Then you can think again
Because your passion is just a mask for a business
That loves this art just enough, enough to exploit it
So if you think that I'm willing to pay
For empty words of praise
Then you can think again
Your authority is self-appointed
The acclaim you sell is totally worthless
Your opinions are no better than others
but you exhibit them like gospel to the choir
But no one who loves, wants to profit from love
or charges a fee every time that they help others
So keep those words you deal in vain
I still believe in other ways
And they'll never help us anyway
For what is your love if so easily swayed?
I would rather stay hidden away
Cos there is nothing here to gain
There is nothing here to gain
There is nothing here to gain
This crown of false glory - it can be anyone's
but it preys on the mindless, and remains on the desperate.

This is a requiem
This is an ode
To the things I used to do
Which I now don't
To the change I willed to happen
That sweetness I imagined, but I could never taste
Cos the chance you take will always be the chance I waste.
I risk too much, to play it safe.
But I lose too much, to win this game.
I risk too much, to play it safe.
And I dream too much of yesterday.
this time can never be replaced
Now I know one thing too well
And it's not how many chances fell
Out of of my hands
Out of my fearful hands
Promise to yourself
Enjoy it while it lasts
That resolution will fade fast
Promise to yourself
That you are not your past
That resolution will fade fast
This time can never be replaced.
Don't lay it to waste.
Don't make that mistake.

So here we are, this is it
Here's to all our perseverance and our choices made
I know that things won't be the same
but don't throw this away
The road is gritty but we're still on it
My heart is aching but I've still got it
And if I'm never letting go
then I will never be alone
I could have so much regret
but this night isn't over yet
Our lives aren't over
Don't let go

How many times must we recreate yesterdays that become our mistakes
From blinding dreams to bitter acts, reality pales where we remain trapped, with disappointing aftermath
How many times do we have to ask which one is the liberating path
No answer
No answer
First running towards, then running away
One minute golden the next is grey
when will we know whether to stay
or how to draw a line that won't be erased
This promise today will be tomorrows promise broken
No matter how thick our walls with resolution

Please don't get too close, your illusion is perfect
I will do anything to keep it, keep it untouched, in the distance
As, I watch from afar and confine the glimpses of your light behind the bars of my own heart.
I promise this amazing story will be one that never starts
With words that only falter when it's time to choose a path
In a life of disappointment
I will never let you play a part
The more honest you get, the less I am able to protect my fragile hope which lies beyond the edge
and I don't want to throw myself off yet.

They say
remember the good old days
But we're so young that we have none
And, if at all, should we belong
It's to a blank generation with no idealism to fall back upon
The taste is so sweet but it slips off the tongue
as if falling this fast could be another race won
But we're already out of time
Already out of breath
About to cross the finish line
With absolutely nothing left
And in every last gasp between
the things they say and the nothing they mean
the air we swallow shall be empty
As we struggle to keep their false momentum going
When it's not even a close call, this scramble for the drivers seat,
The steering wheel remains out of reach for those considered to be "beneath"
Look outside and only our eyes will see
For us the road signs are blank - not blurry
We'll never know if this was an opportunity
To go anywhere
To be anything
Or just a question of "why bother?"
Why bother knowing anything?
Except when to admit defeat.

I promised you would never see a trace
of me ever being human again
But I can't keep it.
I can't live up to it.
I crumble in the shadows of a perfectionist
Cutting the corners of my heart until it has no edges
Just a constant need to be covered in bandages
Which restrain and remind of all my failures and wreckages
If love is a dream and I can't get to sleep
You'd better fucking knock me out
and perform the lobotomy on me yourself
But wait for now, while I still feel
Both full of life and full of guilt
And with lips of tingling passionate rouge
Make not one more 'integral' move
For your righteous tongue is covered in eggshells
As it licks it rips these wounds
With desperate claws of good intentions
I hold onto my horns.
Always ready to be locked.
Then you say I'm an animal.
And you chop them straight off.

The atmosphere in here is frosty
The seat next to me is empty
The promises you make are slipping
Upon words that get retracted so easily
All gets deleted from the blank mirror of the screen
As you move onto the next big fashion thing
If this is what belonging means
Then you can take that hollow self worth away from me
It depends upon the vain anonymity
of the crowd you're never really pleasing.
Have you ever asked why this is worth it?
And what makes you so convinced
That this the only thing which matters
And that everything else is just shit?
Have you developed a taste for it or just a weakness?
How much did you have to give, to join this club of ignorance?
Where anything goes, but nothing stays,
And everyone's here, but nobody's friends.
It's just the scene to be seen in
And I'm glad to leave unnoticed
Yeah, I'm glad to leave unnoticed
I'm proud to be a ghost
For all the nights of passion
Which died so long ago.